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2010-10-19T02:47:00.000-07:00

I would probably gonna start writing again. Shit.
I would normally write if I can't find any other way to compartmentalise my emotions
It has gone passed my containment level and I have to channel it somewhere
And this is my last resort to sanity
The roller coaster ride starts now...

ting tong for beginner

2009-11-23T07:30:00.000-08:00

Yuuuhuuu~

Apa kabar org kampung? lama sudah tak berjumpa~ *feeling sudirman sat

Anda mau lagi?

Dah lama i tak tulis kesah2 mencuit ati kan uols? sampai dapat komen dari salah sorg pembaca yg blog i makin bertema lara skang. Kaedahnye u baca posting i sampai mana ni? mode lara i dah lama abis ok! *matila defensive kan? Ala... dah nama manusia. mesti la ada ups and down *hi izzu.

Jadi, sekali sekala tu ada la posting2 yg meruntun jiwa katanya. Lagipun, baik ada posting daripada xde langsung kan? *hi kak yam

I skang ni nak melarikan diri dari konsep web sesawang yang betul2 bersawang okey!

Macam biasa, mukadimah i saja dah boleh buat separuh project paper...hahaha matila makcik2 sgt. suka melalut tak tentu hala. Apa2 pun, arini i nak menceritakan pengalaman i masa buat handover keja baru i kat kl.

Since coming january ni, i akan start fresh with a new team under me, i terpaksa la berjumpa dengan team member sekarang utk mendapatkan info2 pasal apa yg diorg buat. I sebetulnye kesian kat puki2 ni (team ni semua pukis uols), as a person mereka sangat baik dan helpful ye. I terharu sgt. Imagine that diorg ni semua kene VSS from company i tau.

Tapi diorg masih lagi ikhlas buat keje and cuba tolong i cascade down semua info kat i supaya bila my new team member masuk nanti i tak kelam kabut nak manage diorg. Mulia tak? kalau aku yg jadi diorg, dah tau kene VSS harus la aku mengangkang je kat office pastu buat bodo je pasal knowledge management. biar tercirit sapa yg amik alih keje aku tu! Baru ada akai!

uols mmg sgt baik dan berhati mulia..mother teresa sgt! hak!

Khenn? but pukis2 ni sgt berhati mulia.. siap cakap kat aku kalau ada masalah, boleh call diorg for assistance. Melk trus amik peluang uols.. negotiate ngan diorg contract terms kalau2 i shorthanded on resources nanti. Heip.. jgn pk i berhati jahat ye.. its a win2 situation. diorg tolong i, i kasi diorg good contractual terms la.

Anyhow, disebabkan kebaikkan diorg tu, i ngan my other global colleague bawak la diorg gi lunch on the company. Bawak gi ke TGIF. Punya la sronok bebudak ni uols. Aku nak kata diorg ni org miskin tu tak de la. nak kata diorg ni tak berpelajaran tinggi pun tak jugak.. half of them ada masters kaedahnye. Unfortunately, they didn't enjoy the luxury like other employees in my company (diorg ni sits under subsidiary.. so pay structure diorg sgt bebeza.. gaji seseko dlm 1.8 - 2.5 k je)

Kami dah pulang emak buat cucur..cucur datang dari seberang~ *hi kak yam lagi

Jadi masa bawak diorg ni ke sana ibarat bawak anak2 yatim ke pavilion katanya~ diog jadi jakun dan terlebih exited. memasing tengok menu tu macam makanan boleh kuar dari kertas tu ye! pastu diorg pun order la steak la ayam la apa... ada sorg ni nampak sgt mcm xpernah dtg to this kinda place. dia ikut je apa yg aku order.. melk sgt sedih dan terharu uols. masa tu i sgt bersyukur dengan rejeki tuhan limpahkan kat i sampai skang.

i tau yg dia kalau nak dtg sini (TGIF) kene pk 2-3 kali.. daripada bazir 50 on a plate, dia boleh beli memacam utk anak dan suami dia. so lepas kitorg order2 kan.. datang la air... semua pun ikut order ice lemon tea. bila sampai je.. ada sorang puki ni bleh cakap "wah best nye air dia~" pastu yg lain pun ckp "a'ah la.. ye ye"

melk ngan nina (colleague i satu lagi) tergamam uols! pastu siap sorg laie ni (yg ikut order i tu) compare2 size gelas dia ngan kawan dia. kebetulan gelas dia kecik sket. "tak aci, aku punya kecik!" i langsung cakap "takpe2 boleh refillable, jgn risau" sbb i tak tau nak respond mcm mana dah. and then, sorg ni siap amik gamba makanan dia ngan tepon dia uols! sampai macam tu skali peghak nye budakni or appreciative nye diorg dengan rejeki yg datang..bley?

abis2 makan2 kami pun balik la. haaa..masa balik ni yang kelaka uols~ masa kat opis i perasan dua tiga puki ni ala pose ting tong lite2 katanya. seseko bila ditanya solan je, dijawabnye meleret2 pastu tersengeh2 tak tentu pasal.. then pekataan2 yg ditutur pun slurring katanya!

If u want to look like a girl, then drink like one also la? xyah makan cikmon lagi uols~

melk hairan. awat, dah terlebih makan ke apa? ke terlebih happy sampai ko jadi high? mau tak nye 2 org pukis dari 5 org ni memang mcm mode lepas kene pam ganja uols! i pun tanya apa jadi ngan diorg kat pompuan yg order sama ngan i tu.

dia pun jawab "tah la. lepas makan tadi start dlm kete diorg dah meracau2 tak tentu pasal dlm kete sampai skang"

wah! kene sampuk hantu TGIF kah? i pun tanya lagi.. diorg order apa tadi ek?

"hmm.. NY strip steak ngan JD sauce tu and grill chicken apa tah"

"ooooo..patutla... makanan tu ada arak. mungkin diorg termabuk sket2 kot"

"ha? ye ke? laaa... padan la... hahahahahaha"

"takpe2.. korg tak tau.. so kira tak salah la tu..huhuhuhu. biarla diorg camtu sat.. nanti ok la"

"i want no wine, no alcohol in my food ok!" *matila sapa pun tak tau

Patutla seseko macam beruk dapat bunga uols~ memasing dah pekena jus 'syorga' katanya! Sian diorg kan nok? Astaga.... *wah~

Movie Review : 4Bia 2

2009-11-16T03:25:00.000-08:00

Hola Uols~

Mode gigih i datang balik harini katanya. Jadi i nak membuat review filem utk uols semua. Seperti biasa, i tak akan membazir masa menulis kalau cerita tu bukanlah cerita yang wajib uols tgk ye. I xde masa nak promote cerita2 tahap longkang kat sini. So kalau i review tu maksudnya memang worth it la uols buang RM10 ke memana pawagam ataupun beli DVD cetak rompak bagai ye.

I baru je lagi tgk cerita 4bia 2 ni.. rasanya last 2 weeks kot. And i've seen 4bia -1. This new instalment is way better than the first one. Yg pertama tu mcm sial! so jgn buang masa tgk ye. Kalau nak tgk pun maybe last scene dia je. pasal 4 org campers tu... for 2 obvious reasons

a- jalan cerita dia agak menarik

b- ada eye candy~ (seronoknye kalau i dpt tgk diorg pose orgy masa tido sesama dlm utan itew.. awwww~)

Anyhow, kalau this is the first time uols nak tgk 4bia ni. Jgn risau kalau u termiss the first sequeal. Sebab cerita dlm 4bia 2 ni haram takde kene mengena dengan the first one ya.

Basically, 4bia (1 & 2) is about 4-5 short stories yg tak interrelated with each other. Take it as watching short movie compilation macam uols beli album2 compilation di kedai2 itew...

5 in 1: Kalah shampoo uols!

Jadi dlm kesah yang kali ni, ada 5 cerita. And setiap satu cerita dia mmg menarik. Yes! I ulangi. Menarik. And yang paling i suka dlm sequel ini adalah... jeng jeng jeng..

SETIAP STORY DIA ADA ORANG CANDO YE!

kau tak merembes kalau candy2 mcm ni bersepah dlm stiap scene? ayo cikcap skang~

I sangat becak meleleh deras banjir bagai macam sugai rajang bah uols~ Silap2 boleh tuka tema horror cerita ni kepada tema softporn sgt! *matila imaginasi tinggi..huhu

Yang paling best ialah almost setiap short story dia mempunyai twisted ending sampaikan ada scene2 yang you tak sangka ending dia macam tu. Very fresh idea thrown by the director and script writer. Pintar pintar!

For those yang appreciate humor in horror mcm i, uols juga akan terhibur dengan last scene dlm movie ni dimana unsur humor diserapkan dengan bijak sekali sepanjang pementasan cerita dia.

Antara wajah2 dari setiap short movies dlm cerita nih

All and all i would say, a very well job done by the production team and it satisfies just what the viewers need. Especially when there are just too many horror movies in production lately.

Kalau uols nak a peek of what the scenes are all about, uols boleh baca summary yang i sisipkan kat bawah tu.. i copy paste ja from wikipedia. Melk malas nak menaip katanya. Syukur teknologi sekarang sangat la mengagumkan.

Sayang IT~ Cinta IT~ Benci Siti~ *opss..

Synopsis of 4Bia 2

Source: Wikipedia

Novice

a Film by Paween Purijitpanya
the story focusing on a 14 year old; Pey, who has committed a crime Pa-Hin (throwing rocks) (being on the motorcycle throwing rocks to the cars windshield waiting for the car to crashed then steal money and other valuable items from the owner) and in order to keep the news low his mom decided that Pey must get ordained to become a buddhist novice to escape the crime he committed, under the guise of a monk, Pey remains unnoticed as a criminal. However, something deep down inside is bothering him. As he spend the night in the woods trying to meditate something is bothering him, his thoughts and something else. The grip of fear tightens as he realizes that 'karma' has no friend or foe when deciding a man's fate or fortune.

Ward

a film by Visute Poolvoralaks
Arthit; a playful teenager crashes his bike and breaks both legs. At the hospital he has been moved from the ER room to a shared room. In the room, there is an old man in a coma who has been waiting for almost a month for his family to decide to pull the plug on his oxygen. What happens that night will make Arthit realize that being alone is always better that being around bad company.

Backpackers

a film by Songyos Sugmakanan
Upon graduation, a young Japanese couple decided to travel around Thailand by backpacking. After failed attempts to hitchhike from Samui island to Bangkok, the boyfriend waves a 1,000 Baht note in hopes to entice passing cats to pick them up. What is hiding inside the truck's trailer? Is there something deeper and darker that lurks behind the kind smiling face of the truck driver who lets them hop in? The answers to these questions will cause an adrenalin rush like no other.

Salvage

a film by Parkpoom Wongpoom
Nuch is a car dealer. She makes her living by rebuilding severely damaged cars. But little do unsuspecting bargain hunters know, beneath the new upholstery and shiny repainted exteriors are cars with horror pasts. One night after closing the car garage she discovers her son is missing. Reviewing the security camera tapes she sees her son climb inside a car that she recently bought but nowhere on tapes has him climbing out "Cemetary Garage" where you drive off with more that you bargained for.

In The End

a film by Banjong Pisanthanakun
Ter, Puak, Shin and Aey are the movie crew of an upcoming horror movie. They are shooting their last scene. On the last night, Puak is trying to be cool and tells one of the sick cast members that, "the show must go on". So when that actress accidentally dies during the filming she makes sure to come back from the dead to finish her role. The four of them must shoot the movie that has a real ghost playing the role of ghost in the end. and the main actress must not know about this.

Akhirnya! Kini Pasti!

2009-11-15T04:56:00.000-08:00

Nita: Gamba i sebelum beratus2 operations.. ops.

Akhirnya! Kini Pasti! Ku merasai~~ *pose kak nita kejap..

Yes uols! akhirnya i tak payah lagi susah payah memecut setiap malam jumaat and malam ahad selama dua jam dari ipoh ke kl almost every week lagi dah lepas ni. I'm oficially being kicked out from IPOH~~!!! yeay~~ Iols dah dapat transfer balik ke KL~ serunuknye saya~

Lepas ni i xpayah nak pening kepala susun jadual set kawan mana i kene jumpa from hari jumaat ,sabtu and ahad dikala siang, petang ataupun malam lagi dah. Ya ampun, tuhan je la yg tau betapa susahnye nak kampui semua set of friends yg i kene jumpa within 2 days kan. ye la, kalau tak jumpa dikatakan sombong, tak nak keep in touch bagai. so kene la bahagi2 kan masa githu.

Come january, i ada 7 hari seminggu untuk susun plan i kuar ngan kengkawan mahupun sesiapa yg istimewa utk diluangkan masa i dengan...and i hope i can be fair to everyone this time around.

Rumahku~ Aaah~

Aaaah...and i dapat duduk umah i dah~ tak perlu sakit ati baya maintenance charge to management buta2 setiap bulan lagi~ and i tak payah lagi jadi permanent resident kat umah siana lagi~ cukup2 la i menyusahkan diorg selama ni. ala2 dah boleh taruk i sebagai penghuni rumah kat sana dah..sbb selalu sgt. hahahaha..

p/s: sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit. mesej utk kak yam and siana.

Cuma satu je yg menjadikan kerisauan i skang... mana aku nak cari duit beli kete nih.. saving semua dah lesap dek renovation umah. skang mrasa la nak beli kete, tak de uwang nak taruk downpayment. matilamakkkk~ and izzu, i dont think i'm gonna buy a beetle. lepas i kira2, i rasa adalah bodoh utk i bazirkan 1.5k plus/mth utk kete, baik i beli baju. lagi best. bley?

Jgn tak tau, i pun bleh pose gadis litar katanya! hak!

I need to get a car within 1 month or i'm gonna have to take a cab everyday to work. what should i get aaa? i kekusutan la.. dah 3 hari i melangut kat website car manufacturer, dah macam abg2 jejans yg gila kete dah i skang.. how? i'm thinking of getting either Mazda 3, Volkswagen Polo or Golf, ataupun Mini. Yg mana satu ya?

Ah~ i Pusing banget!

must everything comes in pair? part 2

2009-11-06T08:20:00.000-08:00

Some people say that once you go double (i.e. coupled, attached, in relationship, dating..or whatever crap u wanna call it), u just cant stay single anymore. is that true? is it because u had the taste of being taken care of and loved? then why are there so many people ended up being hurt by it and yet still longing for the forbidden word called LOVE?

kalau telur dah kene goreng... selesai sudah

Its a chicken and egg question. I know. I've been asking myself for the right answer. Its an equation i just couldn't solve. Not yet. And i am determined to find a solution to it. Perhaps one fine day.

I quote one of my good friend saying - why are people so into marriage (or committed to a relationship), didn't they know that it does not work!

Still, the same person who said this also looking for companionship. Ironic huh? As we grow older. Day after day, we will loose one person in our life. One at a time. It could be our family member, a friend, acquaintances and so on... They either die, moved on with their own life or finding other people to complete their next crusades. The only person left is just us. Me, you.

mereputlah kau nasa si sampah masyarakat! *tetiba

To come and think about it, whether we like it or not, we are going to be single again. Sooner or later. So why bother going through all the hassles when u already know how the ending gonna be like? I could be wrong...

2009-11-02T05:46:00.000-08:00

This fella is freaking hillarious!!! tak perchaya? cuba ko dengar standup comedy dia! really good! trust me!

Anak buluh betung

2009-10-26T08:30:00.000-07:00

marilah beranak~

Alamak!!! i terberanak sorang lagi anak harini!

matila betambah lagi jumlah anak i skang...

tapi pk balik.. anak sulung dah bleh stand on her feet skang.. so i dah tak risau sgt.

anak no 2 .... hhmmmmm.. still my biggest worry to date.

anak no 3 .... rasanya tunggu masa utk flag off

anak no 4 .... quite independent dah... now on the right track already... not much guidance needed lagi..kalau terpesong jugak mmg aku ketuk kepala dia sampai lunyai kot.

hello world!

so rasanya i'm quite ready for a new born. this one should be an interesting case to pick.

must everything comes in pair? part 1

2009-10-20T08:42:00.000-07:00

I was at No Black Tie last friday, mummy performed that night. I had to pay 40 bucks just for the cover charge without any complimentary drinks. Really a cut throat situation. Just because they can get someone as good as my mummy to perform, they think that they can simply rip people's pocket that easy? Celaka betul! They were lucky coz the 'grape juice' served was fantastic, else there will be more things for me to bitch about in this entry. But that is not the real reason of me writing today.

Ran into few other people there and one of them was Sam. Sam is a successful reporter, in fact he is now the head editor for a lifestyle section in one of renown local newspaper. Its been a while since the last time we met... i guess a good couple of years.

We asked about how each other's life. updates and stuffs. then the "P" word came out from nowhere. the "Partner" word. I didn't remember who brought the topic up but i do remember telling that i'm now single. In a very cheerful tone. I was always and has always been known as a happy-go-lucky person to them (there are bunch of other friends there) and the ideal scenario is to give what exactly people wants. Act as if nothing really bothers me much.

Awe...how sweet... my ass

And then Sam responded to me. "You know what Ash, i'm cursed". 'Why do u say so?'. " Since the last time we hang out till now, i have been single all the while" Now, what would a happy-go-lucky, yet nurturing (yea rite!) person do when he is put under such situation? Of course, i need to be positive. To make him feel good. A skill that i picked up during my counseling course and those countless sessions that i had with people on problems they are facing.

Being single is bad?

I told him that living single is not that bad. Look from a brighter side of it. You have no one to dictate or restrict your movement. And you have options to choose from everyday. Without having to consider the other person when making one.

But at the back of my mind, i hesitated with my ownself. Is being single really a curse? Must everything comes in pair to make sense?

end of part 1

If...

2009-10-19T08:30:00.000-07:00

Currently listening to this song.. on and on..

Hey kau! Bongok sangat kah?

2009-10-14T04:04:00.000-07:00

Hey hey~

Harini i nak berangan bercakap pasal kemanusiaan pulak. Pose berangan wan kamarudin ataupun dang suria. Dintch mau jadi pengacara 999 tu. apa nama dia? mazidul ek? Takpe..tak penting pun sapa org tu anyway. Bukan dapat hadiah pun kalau teke betul kan?

Kesahnye macam ni uols. Selalu i baca je dlm soratkabar. Tak pernah lagi nampak depan mata. Tapi i berharap tak kan lagi la i jumpa binatang2 macam ni lagi kat mana2. Tak cukup dengan kematian yang sedia ada..ko nak jugak create satu utk diri sendri kan? apa punya manusia pun aku tak tau! I nak meracau jerit 8 octave mcm kak mariah sat...

ahhhhhh~ sampai ke key nye nok?

Last friday, i gi buat site visit i kat tepeng. so masa lunch tu i pun pegi la ke tesco tepeng utk nyam nyam sengsorg. Sudah makan i pun gi le ke carpark khen. nak sambung keje katanya... sambil2 i jalan mencari kerete (sebetulnye sudah cuak sbb tak tau kete kat mana; i ni dorry the fish sket. slalu lupa kete park mana) i nampak la satu bijik kete ni masuk ke parking.

Pompuan ni datang ngan anak laki dia. Budak skolah. Mcm mana i tau? sbb dia pakai uniform skolah rendah la. pandai tak? hahahah. Then i tengok mak dia kuar dari kete tu tapi anak dia menten duk dlm men gem. I pun memerhati lebih lanjut sambil trus mencari kete i jgk.

Sian ko kene tinggal ngan mak ko dlm kete ye nakk... meh ikut abg balik... ops.

Pastu burit tu tekan tit-tot dia (alarm la) then trus berambus. Ayo! darah i terus menyirap ye! KO BODOH KE BANGANG TINGGAL ANAK DLM KETE SENGSORG BAHALUL OI? Uols, walaupun budak tu budak sekolah rendah, cerdik sangat ke dia sampai leh kene tinggal dlm kete semata2 mak dia nak gi shopping kat tesco tu?

Apa alasan ko tinggalkan anak macam tu? tak mau dia kacau ko shopping? takmau org ingat ko dah kawin? cantik ke kau? cham taik ada la! kalau dia mati kejung kat dlm tu sapa nak meracau? kalau dia kene colek ke apa? sapa nak begolek2 atas lantai menangis tak sudah? aku ke kau? isk bodoh betul la!

I pun pose good citizen gi kelui dia.

"miss, i think u left something behind. ur son is still inside the car"

"oh. yes. purposely did that. let him play with his game."

"eh, u can't do that, don't u worry about ur own child's safety? he could have been suffocated by carbon monoxide released by the air-cond or something "

"its ok. i've already switch off the engine"

haaaaaaa! bangang tak pompuan ni uols? ko ingat sbb bebudak yg mati sebelum ni sbb aircond dia on. ko lebih cerdik dari parents yang lain la sbb ko off engine ko kali ni? dari elok budak tu mati keracunan carbon monoxide which kills u silently tanpa rasa sakit, ko nak anak ko mati menggelupur kepanasan kah?

ko penah baca tak sign ni bahalol?

Kata org, pompuan ni bila dah jadi mak, naluri ibu diorg kuat. sanggup korban kan diri demi anak2. aku rasa pompuan ni tak masuk dlm list tu la kot. sbb mungkin naluri ibu dia dibuat daripada otak binatang. wait, even binatang pun pandai jaga anak.. so maybe pompuan ni sememangnya takde otak.

kalau ko tak reti nak bela anak ko tu, baik ko kasi org ye. baik kasi aku lagi bagus. walaupun aku takde pepet, aku tau jaga anak lebih baik dari ko!

tapi.. kalau pikir dua kali, tak mau la anak ko tu..sbb dia tak cando. i dintch mau bela anak yg hodoh. so biar la dia mati kejung dlm tu.. tak de guna sangat pun. lagipun kesian jgk bila dia besa nanti... jadi budak yg laha..takde org mau, pastu kene kutuk buruk macam mak dia.. then dia depress and bunuh diri.. so kesimpulannye dari dia mati sbb bunuh diri, baik mak dia bunuh sesiap kot?

Kalau anak u cando macam ni, i rela amik dia bawak balik umah. Biarlah i berkorban membesarkan dia.... *penuh sifat penyayang sgt kan?

Oooo.. tak abis lagi perbualan i ngan pompuan tu. u tau i jawab apa kat dia lepas dia bagi statement bodo mcm tu kat i? * ko ingat aku ni sekolah tak abis ke pompuan oi?

"aaaaa... ic.. good one. Anyway, while shopping for your groceries, u might want to pick up bundles of color papers and perhaps a printer if u don't have one yet"

"why would i need those stuff for anyway. i'm late already, thanks for your concern"

"no problem miss. btw, those stuff that u think u won't be needing would come in handy when ur child goes missing. U sure need a lot of fliers"

Trus sentap pompuan tu uols! I pun trus berjalan dengan perasaan bongkak. Mrasa la kau!

Pon pon pon... pondan

2009-10-10T21:53:00.000-07:00

Tadaaa~ i dah compartmentalize kan emosi dan kini sudah bisa menulis dengan ceria kembali. Mohon maaf kalau post sebelum ni yang bernada jiwa kacau telah mengaggu gugat emosi org lain. Tapi ni blog i.. so i punya suka la kan? hahahaha. Tak kan la hari2 hidup aku ni gembira memanjang.. sah sah la ada suka duka sakit hati senang hati bagai. Kata manusia.. kalau tak, baik jadi robot ataupun binatang.. tak yah pening kepala.

Jadi, utk posting ni, i nak berkesahkan pasal kejadian 2 minggu lepas. Dimana kereta i telah pandai bermain vagina monologue katanya! kete aku ni mmg sial la. dah la kene curi pastu tak cukup sifat, skang ni dah pandai meracau2 pulak! How?

KETE I DIRASUK HANTU UOLSSSS!!

waaaaaa~ i merasuk kereta u sbb perchintaan i dintch kekal katanya~ *opss

Nak dijadikan cerita (bukan la i buat2 ye ceritanye. ini kesah benar!), i gi ke pavilion jumpa kawan i catching up stories la segala. pastu i gi la ke lau yat ngan dia sat sbb nak tuka game PSP i. Masa ni takde apa2 yg pelik lagi berlaku..sampai la masa kitorg sampai ke parking lot nak kuar kan kete...

Kene pulak masa nak kuar tu, ada kete lain nunggu nak masuk. elok i pusing steering i, i dengar org hon. I pun dengan sewenang2nye memaki kete yg menunggu tu sbb tak reti2 nak saba kan? dah kira cukup rahmat la aku nak kuar cepat2 tak macam sengah2 org yg boleh bergolek2 dlm kete pastu korek idung la, betul2 kan mekap rambut la sebelum idupkan engine. kak pah (kawan i) pun turut sama memaki kete tu. tapi tingkap tutup la.. so org tu bkn dengar pun.. hahaha

dah kuar dari lau yat tu..i dengar org hon lagi! tiap kali i pusing kete je ada org hon! babi tak? apa harini semua org mood swing kah? keje hon memanjang?

apa nak kena saman kah org yg suka2 hati honk2 ni?

Memandangkan i super kondifen yang bunyi honk tu bukan dari kete i, kami bedua dengan secukup rasa meracau pasal makhluk2 di kl yg tak berperibahasa katanya. sampai la masuk ke jalan bukit bintang yg pada ketika itu sangatla hanjing jam nye.

kereta bersusun uols.. tak bergerak! mana kempen berkongsi kete nye? ado?!

Tapi kenkondifenan i berubah bila dlm kete bersusun2 ni, i menyedari yg bunyi hon tu datang dari kete i! ayo!! perasaan berani maki jadi sgt takut ye! rupa2nya stiap kali i gerakan steering i, kete i bebunyi.. memula hon tu lite2 manja je bunyinye pastu makin kuat pulak! sampai tahap meracau! i jadi sangat cuak ye!

ko imagine la, kat bukit bintang, kete bersusun, pastu tempat ni plak terkenal dengan samseng2 tak hingat tuhan.. sbb diorg ingat diorg la tuhan kan? pastu keta aku plak dengan suka hatinye berbunyi macam aku la kepala segala samseng dlm dunia ni. kalau korang, apa perasaannye?

gerak skit je, dia bunyi.. sampaikan aku jadi takut nak pegang steering tu! org semua dah tgk lain macam.. siap ada yg balas2 honk. kene plak dia bunyi mmg kene pada masa uols.. bila ada kete tetiba masuk lorong la.. ataupun buat dajal. tak ke horror?

kitorg bedua hanya mampu bedoa je la supaya takde sesapa benti kete, then kuar datang debik kepala memasing *hi daia~.

tapi tuhan masih sayang kat weols bedua.. takde la org gila buat benda bukan2.. habis dasyat pun diorg pandang hina kat weols.. so yang terbaik yg kitorg bleh buat adalah posse cantik sambil angkat tangan from steering tu dan buat contoh bahawa kete tu bunyi sendri.. dan terbukti teknik tu mmg berkesan!

kesimpulannye.. kalau uols dilahirkan cantik dan comel, u will get away with trouble. githu~

*ending angkat bakul. la la la

Not Myself

2009-10-04T20:53:00.001-07:00

Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
there are times
I lose my worried mind

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
words will go
From poetry to prose

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

And I, in time, will come around, come around
I always do for you

Suppose I said
You're my saving grace?

My grace
My self
Not myself, my myself and I...
When I'm someone else
When I'm not myself

2009-10-03T10:25:00.000-07:00

dear lord, i hope that i've made the right decision this time....

2009-09-30T09:34:00.000-07:00

Mental note to myself. If you want to get involve in a relationship with someone younger than you, especially if that person is uber young, be warned that you are going to deal with serious issue of maturity that might potentially leads to a disaster. That irregardless how attractive that person is (be it physically or qualities that he/she has). The person will never be able to see things the way you see it. Especially if it involves repercussion of a certain act of behavior.

Another mental note to myself, add another core value that you search in a person. Other than seeking a person that accept you as you are, able to be transparent, honest and trustworthy to each other. That person must also show some sense of maturity and portray some sort of goal that he or she wishes to achieve for themselves first before looking what relationship can offer for them.

The tone of my writing will eventually starts to change if i continue to dwell and this will only makes my blog gloomy as it previously was. So i'm gonna stop rambling about it and pick any other funny instances in my life to write about in the upcoming post. So bear with me for a while fellas while i search for the lighter side of me :)

Ahh.. and no.. the dark plot has nothing to do with my previous post. Not related at all.

Open Relationship - elevation or point of breakdown?

2009-09-21T08:27:00.000-07:00

Gawd, i'm so bored! Hari Raya is not something that i look fwd every year solely because there are just too many people coming over to our house and this would serves the perfect time for all the makcik2, nenek2 and pakcik2 to blurt out the forbidden question - Marriage.

So leceh! as if me getting married has anything to do with them except for the part that they can eat for free! Apa dah sengkek sangat ke korang sampai nak beli makanan pun susah? Semua ni telah menyebabkan either

a. I stay in my room, pretending as if i have lots of report to finish

b. go out menggunakan alasan beraya walhal sebenarnye aku nak isap rokok ja

Anyhow, enough about raya already. This week marked a new chapter in my relationship. We have now officially gone open. Yes. I declare myself living in an open relationship. So anyone who wishes to call me for good fun or group work, hey i'm all up for it!! hahahhaha. Back in business babeh!

1+1 = infinity ;)

Now why the sudden shift? This is not something new to me, neither to our relationship. We've spoken bout it before, on how i lay my values and terms involved when it comes to having an ideal relationship. Vice versa. And sex with other people was never a taboo thing for me and the other half.

Not a cardinal sin.

PROVIDED which i' m well aware of whom and when the action takes place. As long as i was told about it way before it happened and i'm agreeable to it, by all means. Go and have fun for all i care. Strictly sex, no emotional attachment and of course a SAFE one.

lady and gentlemen pick your place and position...

Lets look at this from an academical point of view. A psychotherapist, Michael Shernoff wrote about open relationship in an academic journal, Family Process titled "Negotiated Nonmonogamy and Couples". He cites author Dominic Davies who suggests men may be more able to separate in their minds love from sex, and that develop their own values system, refusing the "patriarchal and capitalist notion of a partner as a possestion" *ayo, bunyi sangat intelligent. i rasa kurang bimbo sekarang. huhuhu

What does it say? basically, we are able to distinguish sex as just sex. Just like oil and water will not mix. Now don't be a smarty and start talking about emulsification coz, that is out of contact khey.

This Shernoff also categorizes couples/relationship into few subtypes:

1) the sexually exclusive couple (monogamous);

2) the sexually non-exclusive but unacknowledged couple ("cheating");

3) the primarily sexually exclusive couple, also known as "modified monogamy" (those that perhaps participate in occasional three-ways or group sex together);

4) the sexually non-exclusive acknowledged couple (the open relationship), and

5) non-sexual domestic partners. He describes how for some couples, "fidelity" is defined by the emotional primacy of the relationship, and abiding by whatever rules the couple has agreed upon for how sex outside the relationship should manifest; while "infidelity" means not sex outside the relationship, but breaking the set rules, such as engaging in unprotected sex outside the relationship when it was agreed condoms would be used, or having sex locally when it was agreed they would play with others only while traveling.

So which one are you? I've been in category 1 and 2. And let me share with you, among all categories listed there, being in category 2 relationship sucks! Hence, i would rather go for cat 1 or the remaining others for options. And looking at my current situation and condition, cat 1 is not an ideal solution. People have need and i don't want my partner to be deprived by it which later leads to cat 2.

So why wait till catastrophe hits you when you can do something about it. Taking the problem into opportunity and ultimately the solution that works for both of u. Something to think about my fellow friends and readers...

Disclaimer: Please and again please, this is just my opinion from a different angle and perspective. Not that i dont want to put religion into matter but that will definitely cause the flow of thought being interrupted. So, read this with an open mind. Last thing i want is people sending me comments of tazkirah and ceramah. Not warranted for. Thank you.

now, that is what we call a happily, loving family. lol

Salam Idul Fitri Semua

2009-09-19T04:47:00.000-07:00

Dikesempatan yang ada, saya ingin mengucap kan selamat idul fitri. Minal aidin wal faizin. Mohon maaf lahir batin kepada semua yg tersinggung, terguris, tercarut dan terpropa. Sesungguhnya yg terindah adalah kemaafan sesama insan.

warmest regards,

-ash shinotsubaki-

Drama sebabak- pemintak sedekah

2009-09-16T19:06:00.001-07:00

HOLA UOLS!

I sangat rajin minggu ni. 2 posting katanya. nampak sangat aku makin tak pedulik ngan keje kat opis sbb dah semakin malas nak ngadap laptop malam2 sejak dua tiga ari ni. mau tak nye, dah dua minggu berturut2 i keje weekend ye! ngadap laptop memalam buta sampai pagi kat CC umah siana. Edwell, deja, lela ngan kak yam semua sibuk cur guna internet, i sibuk bekerja. sentip!

Anyhow, i tak nak bebel pasal benda tu. i nak cerita pengalaman i 2 hari sudah masa makan kat kedai nasi lemak ayam kampung pelacur. kheles tak nama kedai dia? pelacur tu i yg tambah sendri la.. sbb kedai tu terletak kat row pondan2 drag melacur kat ipoh ni ha..

so kalau i nak gi makan kat situ ngan kengkawan opis i, kitorg ckp jumpa kat kedai nasi lemak pelacur k? camtu...

Nak dijadikan cerita uols, i ngan opismate i ni sampai sana dulu. bukak posa (walaupun dia cina, dia pun pose bukak posa jgk la) sambil nunggu sab n omar sampai from penang. tengah kitorg sedap berngok-ngek segala, datang la sorang makcik selekeh bawak payung ke meja sebelah kitorg. dan dan dia panggil kakak duk kat meja tu datin uols~

Mintak sedekah dengan PR gedebas gedebus katanya! i buat bodo la kan.. dengan harapan dia xserbu meja kitorg plak. tup tup dia datang ke meje kitorg uols.. terkesima kitorg ye

doktor doktor, saya nak mintak jasa baik doktor2 sekalian..

Kau tau opening speech dia apa? kalau meja sebelah dia panggil datin, kitorg kena panggil doktor uols~ tak tau mana dia dapat idea tu la. dia merayu kat opismate i yg cina ni. "doktor, saya mintak jasa baik doktor untuk sedekah kepada saya. saya hashimah dengan 2 org anak nak beli makanan untuk hari raya. yang terbaik untuk anak saya. tolong lah saya doktor"

kawan aku ni dah pegun kat situ, dah la dia tak berapa paham bahasa melayu, kene pulak pompuan gila ni dok merayu ayat pepanjang. dia trus jadi kaget gitu. tengokkan keadaan macam tu, pengemis tu siap baca doa tah hapa.. muka kawan i trus pucat uols! takut kene mandrem la agaknye.

I pun jadi cuak jgk sbb pompuan ni meroyan tak tentu pasal. so i decided nak kasi sehinggit dua supaya dia berambus. Dia tgk je i kuar wallet trus pusing badan meroyan kat i pulak katanya!!

"dokter, saya dengan anak saya memerlukan bantuan. sempena raya ni tolong la. saya nak berikan yang terbaik untuk anak2 saya dan semestinye yang terbaik itu datang nya dari abang (tetiba panggil aku abang kan? hanjing sgt! mana doktor tadi? btw uols, i quote bulat2 dia cakap ye. i blh hafal sbb terlampau menakutkan kejadian tu..how?)

i pun bukak la wallet i. cari sehengget. tak de! ada spuluh n limapluh je. matila~ pompuan tu plak trus celapak cakap kat i "dokter, bagila saya yg merah tu. saya nak beli makanan untuk anak saya. yang terbaik untuk mereka. dan yang terbaik itu datang nye dari abang~"

ko nak duit merah ye? ni ha! yang terbaik datang nye dari zeti akhtar sjork!

Matilamak~~ camner ni uols?? i tgk kat kawan i. tanya dia ada duit kecik. dia masih lagi tergamam n trus buat muka blur je kat i. Pompuan tu pulak tak henti2 meracau2. dia tgk i buat bodo, dia tuka strategy uols!!! tetiba dia pose drama queen kat situ. dah menangis pulak!

"abang, tolong la saya. saya nak beli beras, ikan dan jeruk untuk anak saya. yang terbaik untuk mereka sempena hari raya ni. dan yang terbaik tu hanya lah dari abang. bagilah~ bagilah duit merah tu bang~ " sambill menangis2 n goyang bahu i.

takut...

I trus takut uols. nak buat scene tak boleh. sbb takut kantoi perangai sebenar kat depan opismate i tu.. so i kasi je la RM 10 kat dia.. lagipun sbb kat sebelah meja satu lagi ada 3 org budak baru duduk kat situ and 2 daripadanye sangat la comel.~ berair poen i macam sungai rajang katanya. lepas i bagi, dia meracau lagi " mmg sesungguhnye yang terbaik mmg dari dokter.. (baca doa apa2 tah)" pastu dia berambus gi meja budak2 cando tu.

Yang hanjing nye, SKRIP DIA PAKAI SAMA UOLS!! Sebijik2! Bebudak tu pun kene panggil dokter, and semua yang terbaik pun datang dari diorg! kau ado pengemis ada standard script untuk mintak sedekah and contigency plan utk buat scene kalau tak bleh nak close sale? mak pitam!

Apa ini bisnes bentuk baru kah? Aku ingat Nasa je yg gila buat duit ngan menipu org... Zass!

Posa kah kau sunds?

2009-09-15T07:50:00.000-07:00

Hello miss, hello miss, engaporengge?

Apa kabar kalian semua? diharap semua nya baik aja ya. Berpuasa ga? Kalo ga puasa, harus sekali makan sampai kenyang gitu. hikhikhik. *pose terperleot sat..pening dengan kegedikan ketawa sendri.

Khesahnye uols, i takut nak tulis entry ni sebetulnye. Ala2 belum tulis lagi nih, i baru je terpikir pasal entry ni masa on the way balik from office tadi. Dah kene carut besar2an kat blog ponen sungai dua katanya! mrasala lepas ni entry i dijadikan reference kepada sasau racauan dia nanti. matilamelkkkkkkkkk~

Jadi, sebelum apa2... i buat disclaimer dulu;

1. cerita ini biarlah menjadi contoh maupun ajaran semata. harus diambil dengan a pinch of salt ya. bukan bermaksud saya mau mengangkat budaya ataupun tatacara yang rata2 dilihat kurang enak pada mata ramai.

2. i org siam... (matila disclaimer jgk kan!)

sawadeekap~ jangan tengok lama2 gambaq saya na.. satni posa jadi lapaq dahaga sajor..

Nak dijadikan cerita uols semua, i bersama kawan2 i (sirna, deja, ajud, mak yam aka peah and melor) pose2 la bertandang ke Ikea. Kononnye nak menemankan si sirna membeli batang langsir la.

Alih2 ngan aku2 pun terbeli memacam kat sana. Memang Ikea tu kuat mandrem uols. pantang lalu, ada je bisikan syaitonnn menghasut beli belah benda bebukan. penting kah scoop ice-cream? penting kah pealer utk dibeli dlm saat2 mcm ni? keji x20! i sentap bazir duit beli benda bukan2!

So selepas kami berblibel dengan nafsu serakah bagai, weols pun menghala ke cashier itew utk membayar. langsung ternampak counter jual kacipap ikea yg sangat sedep itew!

Trivia: tahukah anda kachipap ikea skang dah semakin kedekut? dulu uols boleh jumpa separuh telur dlm sebijik kachipap. kini... kalau jumpa quarter of telur tu kira dah boleh sujud syukur ye! penipu nye IKEA! harga tak turun2 jgk kan? tetap MYR 1 jugak ko jual! cis!

Ah~ melalut lagi i... kembali kepada cerita tadi. Weols semua mendengar hasutan syaiton dari kachipap itew memanggil2 utk dimamah. "belila uols~ belilah uols~ sedap tau kachipap ni. kalau tak makan pasti menyesal putih mata bagai~" kata kachipap2 kat counter tu.

Sekali lagi, weols termakan hasutan syaiton ikea. maka terkinja2 la i, mak yam n ajud nak beli utk makan. i n mak yam masa tu kat pay counter so i suruh la ajud gi belikan. dia pulak takut nak beli sebab nanti kantoi tak puasa. kaedahnye, badan u ada siren bergerak ke kata tak posa sampai kecut telur nak lineup kat sana?

Untuk kasi semangat, i tunjuk la kat dia tempat org berbaris tu.. nah! bersusun memakcik n abang2 beratur nak beli kachipap tu. takut apa? kalau u takut kantoi tak posa.. yg lain tu pun harus la terpalit sama bukan? gamaknye kata2 i laku kot.. langsung dia gi beli sampai bebakul2 kachipap tu. amik kau. perli ke apa khen?

inilah kachipap yang bersuarakan shaiton tu uols.. sedapppp....

Sudah beli dia dtg kat i kasi semua bungkus tu kat i. takut nak bawak katanya.. nanti dipandang serong. kalau dah buat salah tu, kita mmg tak leh nak sorok kan. segala serbi jadi noya walhal takde sapa pedulik pun.

Untuk membuktikan bahawa penchong genit ni noya bukan2, i cakap lagi "uols tengok kat meja makan tu. bersepah org melayu makan. makcik2 bagai! (merujuk memakcik duduk kat meja makan ngan makanan diorg kat atas meja..tah makan ke tak, tak tau la) pondan ni mmg senang makan ayat i..trus dia gi ke counter sauce.. penyet2 sos kat hot dog dia beli.. bley?

tapi tetap ada kesangsian dimata nya.. takut jgk nak makan. i pun tgk la jam i..and hah! jam i tunjuk kul 730pm katanya! apalagi.. i pun tunjuk la kat dia.. dah 730 ni. patut la semua org duk kat meja tu makan bagai.. dah bukak posa.. makan la.. apa lagi..

kitorg pun dengan lahap nye melapah kachipap n hotdog tengah2 org ramai uols! mak yam datang kat kitorg, i pun sua kat dia suruh makan.

mak yam: wah uols.. makan terus kat sini kah?

i: dah bukak posa la.. kul 730 dah ni. (tunjuk jam)

mak yam: ye ke? (sambil amik kachipap n melantak lahap)

pastu datang la deja pulak. i pun sua jgk kat dia.. dengan ayat sama dah kul 730 boleh makan.

ponen ni hampir nak makan gak..tapi dia tgk jam dia pulak.

UOLS! BARU KUL 6 YE! 730 APA NYE? NASIB BAIK TAK MAKAN. KALAU TAK BATAL POSA I! kata deja

i tgk jam i balik.. AYO!! JAM I MATI RUPANYA!!!

patutla org yg lalu lalang tgk kitorg semacam je makan dengan selamba... tapi nasib baik i org siam.. bley??

i pose merangah...tapi dlm bentuk sexy.. (tak tau apa merangah? carila sesapa yg fasih bahasa kedah)

there is nothing wrong with esther

2009-09-08T07:13:00.000-07:00

Salam psycho semua,

I baru lepas tgk cerita ni semalam. I sangat obsess dengan character dlm cerita ni that i have decided to make her as my idol and role model. bley? cerita dia bertajuk ORPHAN. cerita ni sangat best sbb si orphan ni (esther) sgt menunjukkan character manusia yg patut dichontohi kalau uols semua nak berjaya dalam dunia corporate.

Yes uols, sifat bermuka dan juga silent revenge dia sgt memuaskan sehingga i rasa ini mungkin rahsia kejayaan yg i patut dah lama master. kalau i dapat jd macam dia, pasti i tak meracau2 pasal benda2 hanjing yg berlaku kat office itew.

Now, a little bit about the movie in a snapshot, 'Orphan' is the story of Esther and her new adoptive family. Upon the tragic loss of their stillborn child, Kate and John decide to adopt another child. At the local orphanage, they are strangely drawn to a young girl named Esther and take the decision to welcome her into their home. Clue di sini adalah, kalau u bersifat bermuka2 berjumpa org dan sentiasa act in what people thought 'best behavior', chances that people will be drawn to you easily for no apparent reason.

This is where the plot thickens. Almost as soon as Esther joins her new family, an alarming series of events begins to unfold, leading Kate to be suspicious that there is more to the 9-year-old she has adopted, that Esther is not nearly as innocent as she looks. Indeed she isn't.... kau ado guna concept bunuh burung yang tercedera sebab dia akan mati kebuluran akhirnya sedangkan ada option utk merawat binatang tu terlebih dahulu? i sangat taste ngan principle itu!

More and more 'unfortunate events' happen that leads Kate to have stronger negative thoughts but her husband does not share the same view. That leaves bigger room for Esther to manipulate John into believing that Kate has yet to recover from her previous addiction problem hence being unreasonable and paranoid over Esther. Teknik dia mudah je, making every scene working towards your benefit. kalau uols kene gengam tangan, buat2 meronta kononnye sangat kuat pastu gi patahkan tangan sendiri supaya mendramaqueenkan lagi effect scene yg terjadi tu. keles tak?

Apa yang terjadi selepasnya? you have to see it for yourself. This is a must watch movie. You wont feel like you've wasted 12-18 MYR for a stupid plots like Final Destination.

Mari memasak - Kanji Utara

2009-09-02T09:04:00.000-07:00

Ini adalah hasil sebenar yg i masak ok.

Hello hello hello~

Sempena bulan puasa ni, i pose2 berangan martha steward sekejap. lama sangat jadi oprah and tyra banks buat talkshow pasal life bagai, kali ni i nak mengaja uols jadi tukang masak segera dirumah memasing.

i tak tau kat kl panggil apa masakan ni...i think the closest match to this dish ialah bubur lambuk. tapi in actual fact kanji ni langsung tak macam bubur lambuk. i tak suka la bubur lambuk. sbb rasa dia caca marba. segala mak nenek pun ada. i pening. bley?

kepada org2 utara maybe tau la kanji ni apa. basically dia adalah bubur nasi bersantan yg mengandungi campuran bahan2 berunsur protien (daging, ayam, etc) dan galian (sayur etc). utk menyediakan nye mudah je. ni adalah makanan paling mudah dimasak utk org malas. tapi sedap. haaaa.... best tak?

ayo..meracau je dah banyak paragraph, resepinye tak mula lagi..mari ke dapur skang!

bahan2 nya

Bahan2 Wajib - kalau takde tak payah brangan masak kanji ni k.

beras (of course, kalau ko taruk gandum harus jadi bubur gandum kan?)
air (sbb nak jadi bubur...kalau tak u makan bertih beras ja)
santan cair
garam
serai
halia segedebuak (aka sebijik mcm tu)
bawang puteh/merah + hirisan halia utk tumisan lite2
halba

Bahan2 Sunat - ini boleh diubah sesuka hati uols. ikut sedap dan bajet memasing la kan

Daging - import ka local ke sama ja
Ayam - mak hayam tak boleh guna
Ikan - anak ikan..hak!
udang
s.o.t.o.n.g
sayuran (carrot, saderi wonderpets bagai)

Cara2 memasak:

Ha.. uols perasan tak i tak taruk sukatan kepada bahan2 ni? sbb apa? i diajar mak i masak tak pakai sukatan uols. semua pakai campak je. sbb kalau pakai sukatan makanan tu kita akan jadi rigid dlm memasak..so next time tak tau macam mana nak improvise ataupun alter masakan kita bila dia menjadi hanjing atau pun laha.

jadi i pun nak menurunkan petua mak i macam tu kat uols semua. jgn takut berexperimentasi dengan masakan. ko ikut bebulat resepi sampai ke tua pun ko ngadap buku utk memasak la jawabnya.

ok..memula macam ni. campak bawang2, halia hirisan dan halba tu utk tumis. dah kuning wangi kan.. u taruk je beras and air. ha....mudah je. main campak je resepi i ni. dah tu u kacau lite2..

then campak pulak halia and serai. kedua2 bendalah ni uols kene la titik dia dulu ataupun hentam dengan belakang kuali ke apa..kasi dia pecah..supaya rasa dia masuk dlm bubur tu.

ha..masa ni la uols semua taruk benda2 sunat tu ye.. kalau ada bahan2 protein yg keras, mcm lembu atau ayam.. campak sesiap..rebus naik je ngan bahan2 wajib tu. kalau benda2 lembek mcm sotong udang sayur bagai..masuk la lambat sket sbb uols taknak bubur yu jadi chowder ye.

bila dah lama sket, nasi tu akan pecah pelan2..bila agak dia kembang and pecah sampai almost jadi melarut sekali dengan air tu.. u campak pulak santan cair. kacau kacau lite2. api sepanjang masa jangan la mcm api neraka kerana nanti berkerak la bubur kau ye. and jgn lupa taruk garam supaya ada rasa masin.

then.... sudah siap~~

utk garnishing, uols boleh campak bawang goreng ke, daun bawang or goreng bawang besar and bawang merah sampai caramelized. then tuang semua sekali (termasuk dengan minyak2 dia) atas periuk tu mcm dlm gambar diatas.

selamat mencuba~~

p/s: kalau xsedap maksudnye uols mmg hazab dlm ilmu masakan. nasihat i pegi la belajar mengait atau bertukang sjork.. la la la

Pergi tak kembali

2009-09-01T04:50:00.000-07:00

Hello,

Kereta i dah dijumpai. i tak gembira pun. (sbb bukan kete i, kete company) tapi i bersedeh sbb kereta yg dijumpai tu sudah rompong...

binatang tu curi kete i dalam keadaan macam ni.....

dia pulangkan keadaan macam ni!

Binatang betul! dah ko sapu kete aku nonong sini sana tah merompak ke merogol ngan kete aku. pastu tak cukup, ko angkat radio dlm kete, kemas semua benda yg melekat dlm kete tu.

ko kebas jugak barang2 aku sekali! pundek betul la! benda2 yg aku boleh beli takpe la.. aku tak ralat sangat. ni sampai kan kunci umah aku, ID company aku, agreement umah n resit2 pembelian aku jugak pun ko nak kemas ni apa cerita? ko nak buat jual nasi lemak ke guna kertas2 tu bahlol? hissh.. sakit ati betul la.

bukan tu sajo uols.. punya la bingai pencuri kete ni, sampai kan semua sticker yg aku tampal kat kete tu pun dia kebas, sticker condo aku, sticker office la apa la... sampai sticker VIP mcDonald yg free pun dia nak kebas jgk katanya! mmg SEDEH pencuri tu. Aku doakan ko busung sampai mati!!!

kalau tak cukup, ko amik gamba ni print banyak2, since ko hadap sgt kan binatang oi?

Pasrah sampai meracau tak sudah

2009-08-18T07:18:00.000-07:00

Huuu...huuu... i sangat sedih sampai tak tau nak react macam mana bila kejadian hanjing ini berlaku dua ari sudah. I terlampau terkejut dan disbelieved sampai i ketawa gembira bila menyadari pekara mcm ni boleh jadi kat i.

babi sgt~~~ barang2 aku semua lenyap macam tu saja!! haaaaaannnnnnjjjjjiiiinnnnngggg!!! matila sapa yg buat benda ni kat aku tu. semoga ko mati patah tulang berlipat2 badan sampai jadi bola daging tepi jalan!

i begitu terkesima sampai hanya mampu kuarkan wajah comel

Korg tau tak apa yg terjadi ni? kalau dah tau tak yah la baca ye sbb nak bagitau kepada yg tak tau je.. bley? hahahahahhahahah.... i ting tong skang. i sangat tensi sampaikan i hanya mampu meracau2 benda bukan2 je skang ni.

otak i depenuhi dengan sifat amarah yg melampau dan sakit hati sebab semua usaha titik peluh i org lain yg makan free2. kalau ko bagi aku resit derma sekurang2nye aku boleh tolak income tax ye anak haram!!!!

mrasa la korang, i meracau sampai mata i pun jadi mulut katanya! ahhhhhhh~

Kau tau tak bertapa susah aku menyimpan duit nak beli barang2 tu semua binatang oiiii!!!??? bukan nye murah ye! kalau benda tu aku boleh berak dan jadi macam tu, ko amik setiap ari pun aku tak kesah ye! amik la sebanyak mungkin! aku boleh berak lagi banyak2!

tapi kaedahnye benda2 ni semua kene beli pakai duit! and duit tu bukan turun dari langit! aku bukan nye macam setengah2 org yg boleh goyang kaki pastu duit datang begolek2 cari tuan dia. aku kene keje macam nak tercabut kepala ni tau!!! ko senang2 je nak angkat semua tu dari aku seolah2 benda tu mcm risalah percuma tepi jalan?

i tau i hot tapi perlukah i diragut-rentap sedemikian rupa?? u anak ikan i kah brani buat benda2 mcm ni kat i? opss..

Yes uols, barang2 i telah hilang! dicuri org! bukan nye sikit. setiap ari i terpikir, makin bertambah pulak barang2 yg i realised ada kat dlm tu. semuanye ilang mcm tu je. sial sangat!!

I meracau sebab kereta i kene curi!! yang paling i meracau ialah dia curi sekali dengan barang2 dlm kereta tu! binatang betul!! tak cukup ka dengan sebijik kete kau kebas? barang2 aku dlm tu pun ko kebas sekali??? aku nak balik barang2 dlm kete aku tu~~~ kete tu amik la~~~ pulangkan~ pulangkan~

PULANGKAN!!!!!

Saya mempunyai boss yang macam hanjing sekali.

2009-08-01T23:54:00.000-07:00

Babi babi babi~~~

*kheles tak pembukaan i?....macam syiaal!

Uols, i sangat la sakit hati dan rasa mcm cibai sangat dengan boss i skarang. si kimpah berambut jarang tu memang la dasar binatang duduk dalam taik sangat khey! kalau ko nak jadi nerd yang kuat aircond higher management sampai mampus pun aku tak kesah asalkan ko tak heret anak2 buah ko sekali ye! pundek betul. Matilakau eksiden dengan lori sampah pas ni! aku sumpah kau turun temurun mati kebusukan! * i nak belajar curse macam nenek dlm cite drag me to hell skang

Uols, Boss i ni dah la lembab, tak reti buat keje, tembel, slenge, muka pun dah macam org terencat pastu nerdy plak.... pastu ada hati nak suruh kitorg ikut jejak langkah dia?! just semata2 nak tambah point dia utk aircond diri sendri kat boss2 atasan. ye la, since ko nye prestasi keje takde benda nak dibanggakan so terpaksala ko buat benda mengarut2 supaya ada benda ko nak puji diri sendri kat org lain kan.? kan? BODOH!

Kaedahnye, last week masa meeting dept weols, dia boleh bagi direction yang from now onwards, semua staff kene berambut syle sekolah bley? yang pompuan kene ikat rambut kemas2, tak bleh pose2 fesyen saahara yaakob ke kak pah ke waima ning baizura skalipun and lelaki kene pose2 crew cut! hanjing sangat tau!!! aku baru je bazir 45 hengget potong rambut last week, ko suruh aku potong lagi pendek??

rambut i mmg dah pendek, tapi i style kan rambut depan i ke bawah. melk trus kene sangsang uols! katanya panjang! dia nak laki semua rambut tu kalau boleh seinchi dari kepala sjork! ko ingat aku ni keje kat pusat serenti ka hanjing binatang oiiii???

ni je la sekali i potong rambut pendek uols.. tu pun sbb i kene blakon dlm cite james bond..kalau tak haraps la kau! *matikemak?

Nonoks sekalian,

tak cukup dengan peraturan rambut, dia nak berangan fashion director pulak!!! ala2 tak cukup dengan diri sendri dah macam badut berjalan kengkang, dia ingat fesyen dia diva la sangat untuk dijadikan ikutan weols semua!

kasut kitorg dimestikan bewarna hitam sahaja! seluar pun slack hitam sahaja! nasib baik baju dia tak kata hitam sahaja..kalau tak, aku nak namakan dept aku ialah pasukan salesman di supermarket hari-hari, takpun pasukan restoran makanan segera kenny rogers ke apa2 yg sewaktu dengannya.

dia kata nak nampak uniform dan standard. bley? ko ingat kitorng ni budak skolah ke bangsat oi? nak kene pakai baju bajan warna boria sekumpulan bagai?

apasal ko tak suruh kitorg beli uniform sekolah menengah sjork? dah alang2 ko nak badutkan weols semua baik buat betul2 je kan?

atau lagi best, tiru uniform bebudak ni ha.pakai skirt lageh! banyak sket pengudaraan...boleh ka weold aircond kan kau sampai ko beku trus!

Pening kepala weols uols... mana yang baru beli kasut, suar warna2 lain bagai..tup2 nak kene perabis duit beli benda baru lagi. kalau dia bagi kitorg duit takpe jugak.. ni tak... aku kene seluk poket sendri jugak nak beli bendalah arahan bangang ko tu kan?? pundek la kau!

Ingatkan dah settle dah perangai buang tebiat dia.. tup2 dia bagi cadangan plak nak design baju yang uniform utk kitorg semua pakai ari2 gi keje. Ya AMPUN~~~ mak rasa macam kene sembelih ngan pisau tumpul sangat bila dengar dia cakap benda tu... apasal ko tak taruk asam ngan garam skali masa sembelih tu? biar kitorg semua ni menggelupur sampai mati?lepas ni apa? suruh kitorg pakai bow tie jerut leher sampai pitam? pakai cemin mata sebesar muka?

Kalau ko nak sangat kitorg jadi badut kepada seluruh warga company ni, baik ko suruh kitorg pakai mcm pompuan kat bawah ni je!! baru la org kata impak maksima!!

uniform jugak kan uols?

Alahai si kumbang

2009-07-15T08:04:00.000-07:00

Salam sejahtera.

Hantu rajin dah datang kembali~

Sejak dua menjak ni jiwa i kacau jadi i rasa malas nak menulis. Skang masih lagi kacau tapi sbb cerita2 yg i donload tak abis lagi..terpaksa la menulis. pening tak uols? hahahah

baiklah. kesahnye begini. benda ni tak jadi kat i.tapi jadi kat kawan i. Terdapat pengajaran disebalik kesah ini. Harap mengambil iktibar ya puan2.

Karen (kawan i) ni bawak beetle uols. walaupun mata dia ni dah layak bawak tongkat. (yes uols. i tak tipu ye. dia mmg literally blind. Doc pun dah issue surat yg dia tak fit to drive) tapi tetap gigih nak drive kete macam pelesit. I bedoa tuhan tingkatkan luck dia supaya selamat tak langga apa2 or sesiapa masa on the road.

Nak dijadikan cerita kan.. satu ari ni, pompuan ni bawak le kete kat federal highway tu.. on the fast lane lageh! mmg brani mampus. tak padan dengan buta kau kan? pastu dia terpaksa slow kan kete sbb depan dia ada kete polis. tapi pompuan ni tak makan saman, langsung flash high beam kat kete polis tu. Boleh?

mad beetle on the road~

BOLEH nok! pompuan mereng ni flash tak henti2 katanya sampai kete polis tu pasrah trus gi lane slow. kau ado? Masa dia cite tu i maki dia 'are u crazy ms karen? its like waiving for trouble!' dia leh jawab kat i 'hello hello, u want to hear my story or not? i was driving by the speed limit. fuck i care if they are driving police car or what, if ur fucking slow, u use the left lane la!' ayo amasami~

Tapi kete polis tu pun nak tunjuk diva jgk uols~ tgk pompuan yg drive harusla tercalar ego ko kan? trus kasi signal utk pompuan ni brenti. So dia pun benti la tepi jalan. berikut adalah conversasi antara pompuan ni ngan pakcik polis:

kalau polis yg turun macam ni.. i rasa saman 10 pun takpe...khen~

karen(k): kenapa ni cik?

polis(p): cik ni bawak kete laju sangat.

k: eh mana ada cik. sign cakap pandu 90. saya pun ada pandu 90 jugak.

p: cik pandu lebih dari 90. camera kami tangkap speed cik. (sambil tunjuk kamera dlm kete yg dipegang oleh polis satu lagi)

-komen penulis: uols.. i pun baru tau, rupanya skang ni polis main tembak2 dari kete jugak uols.. so kalau ko nampak kete polis depan ko tu, buat2 la pelahan ye..

makcik ni pun dah naik hangin la. 'i tot this police man really want to kenakan i u know. i've been watching my speed limit. i might be partially blind but that writings on the meter, my granma also can see!'

tak puas hati ngan kata2 polisi tu, karen pun masuk balik dlm kete dia. tgk kat meter dia balik.

pastu dia kuar balik gi ke polis tu.

k: cik. saya mengaku salah.

p: eh, kenapa tetiba mengaku salah ni?

polis tu pun pegi ke kete karen n tgk meter bettle dia...

p: ooohhh....patut la cik mengaku salah....

p: meter miles per hour ye?

mrasa 90 kmh sgt kan? 90mph ke 90 kmh karen oii?

k: hehehe... saya pun baru perasan la cik. itu penjual kereta takde kasi tau saya.

p: takpe cik... cik pun bawak kete mahal.. apa lah sangat nak baya saman 300 ringgit ni.

sentap trus pompuan tu uols. trus amik saman sambil buat muka.

pengajarannye uols...

1. ko bawak kete, tgk meter tu betul2. jangan menonong je ingat drive 90 tu 90kmh

2. kalau polis kat depan ko, jgn diva sangat main highbeam suka2 hati unless ko rasa tak tau nak buang mana 300 hengget kau

3. bawak la mengikut speed limit. bawak 140kmh kat atas highway ke 110kmh ke..sampai jgk.. bawak 140 tapi kene saman kat tapah, stranded sengah jam tetap lambat sampai gak kan?? *hi siana

sekian.

Tahukah Anda?...

2009-07-05T09:38:00.000-07:00

Hola,

Malas menulis. jadi tiba masa utk posting berbentuk multimedia. Karen mail me this hyperlink and i find it interesting.. tgk la uols.. mana tau ia dapat meningkatkan ilmu masing2. daa..

Kesahnye...

2009-06-22T04:41:00.000-07:00

Uols pernah dengar tak yang Siti Nurhaliza tu ada adik yg nonok? Haaa... mesti uols tak tau kan? sbenarnye banyak je adik2 yg claim adik siti ni.. termasuk la sorang cikpok bernama Huda. Just because dia keje kat Meben Kuala Lipis tu, dan dan dia claim siti tu kakak dia bley? kiranya kalau i ni jiran Mariah Carey, i bleh claim i ni adik dia jugak kah? tak laratsssss!

Hey uols~ akak tengah pose sun tan ni, mai la join~

I bukan nak cerita pasal dia brangan adik siti nok...sbb langsung tak sampai iras pun, jangan kan suara atau rupa..waima rambut pun nan ado! ko ado brani mati claim adik siti kalau rambut ko ala2 pesakit leukemia baru lepas chemo? jawab! jawab!

pose terlebih chemo..trus berbungkus. how?

Kesahnye masa i tengah sebok gosip2 ngan mak i pasal anak mak ndak i nak becerai bagai akibat cinta antara dua darjat...tetiba je tergantung sbb ada no org kampung siti kuar kat phn i. trus i cakap kat mak i yang ada artis wannabe talipon so i have to hang up on her and take this one. kau baca tak ni huda? melk sanggup berenti gosip ngan mak i utk angkat call u tau!

mcm biasa la pembuka bicara tanya i kat kl ke?. i tanya la dia kat kl kah? dia cakap tak. i pun pose tingtong, motif ko tanya aku kat kl ke solah2 mcm ko nak jumpa aku tapi rupanya ko takde pun kat tempat kejadian? ayooo... konsep sgt!

pastu dia tanya lagi

'ko turun kl tak minggu depan?'

"tak sure lagi..tgk la..nape ko trun kl ke nxt week?"

'tak kot... i nak bedrama' ---> korg nampak tak bertapa sialnye buah2 berbualan pondan ni? dua kali tanya pasal kl solah2 mcm dia ada tapi sebetulnye tanya buat syarat utk bazir bil. keji kan?

i pun malas nak layan bimbo huda..i cakap 'aaah' je.. rupa2nya ada maksud dia cakap nak berdrama tu uols~ dia nak suruh i probe kenapa berdrama..tapi sebab i buat bodo je..dia ulang skali lagi kat i konon kasi hint la..

'nok, i cakap i berdrama..walaupun sebetulnye i involve dlm theater' *meletops kan cara dia nak hint kat i? trus kasi direct maksud tersurat kat muka i mcm taik lembu jatuh atas jalan.

"ooo..ko main theater pulak ke skang? tak cukup menyanyi, menari..belakon pulak la? u mmg berbakat!" *sambil pose buat muka sumbing

'yes..i nak mengikut jejak kakak i...(matila adik2 brangan tak sudah)'

"bagusla nok..."

'nots..i baca blog u. chom ada jumpa u kah?'

"ada la jgk..tapi selalinye ber3G2 ngan i je"

'hanjing je chom tu.. susah tul nak jumpa'

"biasala..dia mmg mcm tu. ada malasah self-esteem sket"

tetiba ponen ni tuka tajuk... 'uols.. sebenarnye i tepon ni nak cakap sesuatu'

"apa nye?"

hi abg polis~ nama i huda. nak jadi anak ikan i tak?

'i skang dah ada ANAK IKAN! polis lagi! tak main la orang2 awam ni!'

'okla tu je.. bye nok~' langsung hang up.

MAK PITAM SKANG!!!!!

celaka punya binatang! kau telipun aku tanya solan2 bukan nak beramah mesra kan?

semata2 nak bagitau aku ko ada anak ikan polis! vavi sgt!!

ko ingat aku suspen dengan jalan cerita kau????

tolong sket! T.O.L.O.N.G sotong! *matila scene gaduh adik2 mana tak tau kat tasek aritu...

Kemunchulan Isimewa - Kekura Chom!

2009-06-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

Tetiba i rasa macam nak buat tribute kepada anak sulung i - Cik Kelthum, juga dikenali sebagai Che' Chom ataupun kekura Chom. Dia merupakan anak pertama yang i beranakan dari mulut i ala2 alien sbb terlampau kimpah so tak leh kuar dari burit i..bley?

Memandangkan teknologi perbidanan masatu masih lagi kuno, i gagal melahirkan anak yang cumel dari segi rupa paras, sebaliknya chomel darisegi bentuk badan. Ataupun doktor yg beranakan i tu salah baca requirement i kot... apa2 pun, disebalik kekurangan fizikal seperti kimpah, renek dan bermata jauh. Dia dilahirkan dengan sifat2 terpuji dan berani mati. Sangat berani mati sampai i pun takut mati kalau jalan kat sebelah dia kengkadang.

Gambar Hiasan: Kekura Chom bersaiz kimpah dan renek mcm gamba ni la uols...

Jadi, disini i nak menceritakan kesah berani mati dia dalam menangani cacian dan tomahan2 manusia2 kepada golongan adik2 saban hari ini. Chom, over to u~

Thanks nukkkk~ uols, walaupun i selalu bersiaran 3G ngan u, i tetap ingat neraka itu terletak di tapak kaki mak hayam! Baiklah, i nak kesahkan 3 teknik membalas serangan apabila berada dalam situasi2 berikut.

Situasi 1: Apabila uols sedang memonen2 di padang atau dimana2 sjork (waima di Maidin skalipun), tetiba datang budak kecik kata u pondan.. Apa u nak buat? *cik sal pls take note!

Serangan Balas:

I cer kat uols semua k pasal pengalaman betul yg bukan dibuat2 ni. Rumah i di banting sana uols, so petang2 i suka lepak kat padang pemainan ngan geng2 i, menyamar jadi kekura labi2 penyu bagai... tetiba ada sorg puki kecik ni sangsang i pondan. Kawan2 i laen terkesima sbb tak sangka puki tu tak padan ngan kecik berani mampus carut i yang diva ni!

Dalam situasi mcm ni, i mencadangkan uols berhati tenang dan senyum kat budak tu sambil merangkak pelan2 ala kura2 ke dia pastu tanya dia dengan penuh sopan "adik kecik cakap apa tadi?" kalau dia cakap ulang balik "abang ni mcm pondan la!", u jgn buang masa betulkan dia yg u ni pompuan ke apa ke. Uols buat je mcm i. Tarik rambut dia biar kepala dia senget ke arah muka u sambil cakap dengan penuh sopan...

"ko balik umah sekarang...cakap abang pondan bagitau yang mak ko tu bapok dan bapak ko tu maknyah suka isap kote!"

p/s: tona suara mestilah meningkat ke pitch tertinggi bila ayat penghabisan. coba la.. pasti berjaya sbb budak pompuan tu trus lari ketakutan balik umah dia bila i buat mcm tu kat dia. sekian.

Situasi ke2: Carutan jiran sebelah rumah kerana u ringan tangan buat keje2 rumah

Walaupun i ni lelaki jadian, i mmg rajin kat rumah seperti mengemaskan rumah, masak, gayut kat tepon bagai...macam uols jugak la kan..i tak reti kangkang depan tv tgk bola pastu jerit2 gol bagai ni. tak manis la! githu..

Serangan Balas:

Jiran sebelah umah i ni mmg mulut longkang uols! tak padan dengan anak dia tu pengkid, selalu carut pasal i kat mak i n adik i.. i tau sbb adik i selalu cite kat i...i mmg dah lama saba sbb tak jadi depan mata kan.. so nak dijadikan cerita, tuhan nak tunjuk kat dia. I tengah menyapu2 daun kat luar rumah tetiba dia kuar buat statement-

"amboi~ rajin nye anak jantan menyapu sampah. betuah mak nye dapat anak laki perangai mcm pompuan kan...." tuu dia!!!

i pun terus sinsing blouse i, sapu semua daun2 masuk dlm pongkes tu.. i taruk sebelah. pastu i senyum kat dia sambil bejalan ke tong sampah umah i yang kebetulan penuh ngan sampah perut ikan bagai. i bawak kuar plastik sampah tu. i bukak ikatan dia. Gi ke pagar yg divide umah kitorg...dengan penuh senyuman, i tuang semua isi sampah tu dalam compound umah dia! seraya berkata (again dengan sopan):

"skarang ni boleh la anak makcik yang macam jantan tak siap tu blaja buat keje umah pulak~ assalamualaikum"

lalu berambus masuk umah cepat2.

Itu saja tips i utk uols semua buat masa ni..nanti kalau i dijemput lagi, i cerita lagi pasal teknik2 lain yang uols boleh aplikasikan ye.. back to u mak hayam!

Skang uols tau kenapa i cakap dia brani mati kan???

Chantik ke Chamtaik?

2009-06-16T04:10:00.000-07:00

matila emo lagi~.....

When I was 7.

They said I was strange...

I noticed that my skin color and hair weren't the same,

I asked my parents if I was OK?

They said you're more beautiful,

And that's the way they show that they wish they had your smile.

So my confidence was up for a while.

I got real comfortable with my own style.

I knew that they were only jealous because...

People are all the same.

And we only get judged by what we do.

My personality reflects me..

And if I'm ugly then;

So are you...
So are you...

There was a time when I felt like I cared that I was shorter than everyone there.

People made me feel like life was unfair.

And I did things that made me ashamed; Cos I didn't know my body would change.

I grew taller than them in more ways...

But there will always be the one who will say something bad to make them feel great.

Everybody talks bad about somebody else.

And never realizes how it affects somebody.

And you bet it won't be forgotten;

Envy is the only thing it could be.

Because people are all the same.

And we only get judged by what we do.

My personality reflects me.

And if I'm ugly then So are you!

Gym untuk bersenam ke bersenggama?

2009-06-15T06:27:00.000-07:00

Kehadapan sesiapa yg membaca, (kalau u suka 'dibelakangi', sila edit mengikut preference anda)

Semalam i lepak ngan abg angkat i kat Pavilion (or rather Gayvilion sbb penuh ngan adik2 dimana2 shj..teleng kepala i tgk diorg). Lama tak jumpa. so banyak la catching up to do. Plus fully sponsored..lunch, movie n tea...huhuhu..sronok2..lama tak kene banje... terasa mcm muda2 begetah dulu plak (i masih lagi muda fyi ok).

mcm2 la kitorg borak, pasal kerje, human rights la, economy la, health etc. tapi yg i nak cerita ni adalah pengalaman abg angkat i ni masa dia kat gym. maklumla, org2 kl ni kan suka gi gym mencantikan badan, cuci mata bagai..i pun nak korek2 jugak apa yg bestnye exercise kat gym besar2 ni.. gym i kat ipoh ni cap ayam je... so takde pape yg menarik pun..banyak kimpah2 je... tak selera nak cuci mata pun.

lagipun i heran nape dia suka gi gym masa lunch break rather than after work..*for obvious reason kan. dia pun cakap la..kalau petang tu mmg susah nak exercise coz manusia2 yg pegi tu kebanyakkan bukan nak berpeluh siaht..diorg nak berpeluh cara lain.

pose sket bang...sat lagi uols sambung rembak balik ye.. i tak kacau dah..

So exercise masa lunch slamat kah? tak jgk... u mungkin tak kene kacau ngan members...tapi u mungkin kene kacau ngan staffs! haaaaa..... best kan? githu....

Nak dijadikan cerita, ada la satu harin i..ada staff baru kat gym tu..taste la..mixed pinoy camtu dok usha2 abg i ni. tapi mcm biasa la..menten profesional kan..senyum lite2 then sambung workout. but this staff ni tak padan ngan baru keje kat situ, dia nak jgk buat part time keje lain uols.

masa abg i ni nak change clothes, tetiba budak mi munchul kat sebelah locker dia and tanya solan bimbo 'u ni dah kawin ke?' abg i tgk dia. blur kejap. then dia ckp 'nape?' bdk tu pun ckp lagi 'u dh kawin ke?' "blum" abg i jwb. 'ooo..so u ni satu set la...' Bley? keles ko nye teknik inference kan? tak payah banyak premise trus bleh buat conclusion sendri katanya. cikgu math ko mmg pandai ajar sgt!

Abg i pun ignore je bdk tu n sambung workout...lepas selang 10 mins camtu tetiba PA system bebunyi 'calling abg cumil~ pls come to reception. tq' kawan ni pun pegi la..ingatkan ada masalah apa khen...sampai2 je sana rupanya budak tu yg panggil.

'napa page i?'

"i bosan la. meh la teman i borak kat sini.."

'i nak workout la..lagipun my lunch break bukan lama'

"ala...jom aa sembang2 sket"

"u dah ada bf ke?"

'nape?'

"jawab je la"

'ada...'

"oooo..so u do hanky pankie tak?"

'errr..asal tanya solan mcm tu?'

"isk..org tanya solan, jawab je la!" *bley tak binatang ni? mengorat stail apa pun aku tak tau.

'well..depends...'

"jom gi toilet" *mak golek2 turun bukit skang~

'errrr...i think i better get back to my training'

abg i pun berambus sjork. walaupun dia sbetulnye taste gak kat budak tu..tapi biasala jual mahal kan...(i tau...u cakp je kat i ur rushing to complete ur cycle tapi in actual fact ur just playing tug of war ngan dia kan??? kan kan?)

pastu kan... selang 5 min camtu, kuar lagi announcement panggil nama abg i. dia pun gi balik kat konter tu tanya nape..mcm biasa budak tu dok pancing lagi ajak gi toilet. abg i buat bodo bagi std answer yg dia nak workout.

tup tup selang 3 minit lagi, bunyi lagi annoucement calling for abg cumil. Uos, kalau ada anugerah staff paling persisten, i mmg kasi kat dia. mmg GIGIH tahap dewa! abg i buat bodo je.. tapi budak tu tak nak kalah..menten page lagi ye. sampaikan kawan abg i ni bleh cakap "aku rasa budak tu syiok kat hang kot. pi la kat dia sat"

kalau u tak mau mai, i pose nyanyi lagu gemilang macam siana kat shopping complex sabah tu kang! this is a threat!

Abg i pun serba salah samada nak melayan ke tak..budak tu mmg gigih panggil jgk...sampaikan guest2 lain plak yg gi ke counter tu sbb takut diorg yg kene panggil sbb tak perasan ke apa kan...

satu u panggil..4 yang tasty trus mengadap katanya! hang nak yg mana habaq mai!

'eh, i nak work out la..sudah2 la panggil i selang seminit dua'

"u nampak tak tadi, i panggil abg cumil tapi yg lain plak dtg"

'ye la..dah u tak henti2 page kat PA tu mmg la org datang'

"i panggil u..diorg tu abg cumil ka?" *ko diva tak diva ?

'ok la..i nak gi sambung exercise'

"ala...teman la i..jap lagi shif i dah nak abis pastu kita gi toilet k"

abg i masa ni dah naik hangin la..sbb budak ni tak paham bahasa kan.. di pun ckp..

"babe..sorry la.. i dont do toilet!"

tapi budak ni tak baham gak bahasa katanya..dia pun tak nak kalah!

"tapi toilet kat bgunan sblh tu besa..dun worry" *bleyyyyy?????

abg i pun dengan diva nye menjawab;

I DONT KNOW BOUT U BUT I DONT SLEEP N SHAG WHERE I FLUSH MY SHIT OUT!

matilakauuuu! *i plak yg emo..channer (pose muka suri yg takde expression)

Cik Sal Call I semalam...

2009-06-11T06:25:00.000-07:00

cik sal bersama bra baru yg dibeli di pasar malam PD

KRing kring.... haluuu~ i menjawab talipon dengan suara kepit bila nampak caller ID phone i tunjuk yg cik sal sedang berada ditalian. Sahutan i disambut kembali dengan suara kepit ala2 hanjing kene sepit tetek. Haluu uols~ buat apa sjork?

I:Mak tak buat pe nok... tengah goreng bijik kelentit masak masam manis ni..meh la rasa katanya.

CS: oo ye ke? mak pun tengah pose2 perah tetek sebelah besar mak ni..susu awal lembu la katanya bagus untuk anak2 hanjing mak ni ha.

I:Memerinye uols. badan u boleh process susu awal lembu. u ni lembu bertopengkan manusia kah?

CS: U nak i bertopengkan binarts apa? semua pun boleh uols~ doktor tempat mak pegi tu, semua jenis injection pun ada, nak betuka jadi godzilla pun boleh okeh! cuma perlu cocok placenta binarts tu mak akan bertukar~ hak! *matila ratu cucuk sapa pun tak tau

I: Hah napa aja ni dong? calling2 i ni mesti bersebab punya kan? i dah lama dah stop supply barang2 mak esah ni. i dah pencen.

CS: u kan..mcm tetau je. takde, i nak tanya papa call u ke tadi?

I: Ada. nape? u nak suruh i speedo apa lagi kali ni?

CS: U tak cerita pasal i kene transfer tu kah?

I: Tak pun uols.. tak terlintas pun. dia sebok dok cerita pasal renovation rumah..meracau2 kenapa i tak amik dia utk renovate umah. i mana la tau. u tak cakap i. setau i dia keje buat jalan. rumah i bukan berbentuk leper boleh taruk tar bagai. Ha, u ni kene transfer mana kaedahnye?

tetiba ada batman tgk ko jadi construction worker, meletop tak?

CS: thats why uols. i pun tak tau dia buat rumah bagai. i pun ingat dia buat jalan ja. habis mak kene maki bingai bagai sbb tak promote dia buat umah kat u. I kene transfer ke Indonesia uols..tapi papa tak tau lagi.. u jangan la bagitau dia k.

I: Wah memeri ke indonesia..bleh la pasni i ke jakarta selalu utk bershopping since dah ada tempat utk berteduh perchuma.tu la papa pun cakap kenapa u tak recommend dia. i concept mendegar je la. dia cerita dia buat ini itu harga macam ni bagai. i cakap buang masa dia cerita kat i sbb i dah half way.

i sang sang je "aku tau ko cuma buat jalan. aku tak nak buat jalan raya dalam rumah ye! "

rasain~

Laundry Mat

2009-06-09T06:18:00.000-07:00

sementara nak tunggu i rajin menulis balik.. terima lah hidangan lagu ni... i masih suka sampai skang. =)

Part 3- My last installment

2009-05-29T09:51:00.000-07:00

This shall be my last installment on all these words of wisdom. I wanna make it short and sweet as possible. Again, i would like to reiterate that i quoted this from an email sent to me but i zest-ed it with my own interpretation, hopefully to either fortify the message or making it digest-able for ME and others.
BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.

Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, 'Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck. Then he asked, 'but when are my fingers going to grow back?' The father went home & committed suicide.

Sad story huh? Writing from my own experience, i've knocked many fingers throughout my life. some of which i regretted till now, some done intentionally to create permanent damage. Nevertheless, the sense of guilt will never vanquish despite the intention(s) that we had. A mistake done once is forgiven but the same mistake done twice will just show how stupid a person can be. I would fall into the stupid category for this case. Relentlessly.

But some, even with committed once could be fatal. I guess before we wanna start making one, think about the possible repercussion that awaits us. If it is worth of taking, again the choice is always in our hands.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

PERSONAL PERCEPTION

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, 'Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey? 'Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, 'The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?' Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.

Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, 'How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman.'
The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, 'Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you.' Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.

It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.

Well said by the writer. What we see or belief might not necessarily reflects the same to others. At times we can or may try to get some alignment to avoid conflict but sometimes it might just lead both parties being entangled.

Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

Part 2- Ash Shinotsubaki Gives Back

2009-05-28T04:41:00.000-07:00

Hola (disebut sbg Ola~) semua anti komunis segala ~
I sungguh teruja mendapat sambutan daripada part pertama diskusi ala oprah i yang begitu memberangsangkan. Thanks kepada peminat yg sampai gigih call i tanya bila nak taruk nasihat2 lain. Since i terlepas ckp esok i upload lagi.. terpaksa i buat jugak.. This is part 2 of 3 yg bakal diintepretasi kan oleh i. Rasainnnnn~

(btw siana, i bukan buat nasihat agama ye, i hanya guna title ustz mashitah bergaduh dengan jiran bagai bila cerita pasal agama sjork)

Nasihat ke-4: RIGHT SPEECH or PERCAKAPAN YANG BETUL

Amik kau! Opening statement grand macam ni u rasa ada chance kene rejam batu x?

Kengkadang kita selalu cakap lepas (me included) tanpa mengambil kira yang perkataan dan tona percakapan kita tu bakal menghiris atau menerajang kepala sipendengar. Nak2 masa tu kita tengah emo kan? lagi la hazab ayat2 binatang yang keluar dari mulut kita tu.
Tapi kalau org yang u sedang bercakap tu ialah Nasa, u hambur je kata nista dan juga kejian sampai ke langit tujuh sbb org macam tu, cakap ngan babi lagi berhasil daripada cakap ngan dia! *contoh tegar kalau emo, kita akan bercakap sesedap rasa ibarat lagu nora dan chef wan...see?
There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that 'A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation.' Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.

A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, 'Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school.' On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, 'Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker.' She answered,'You should appreciate that you married me.. Other wise, he will be the millionaire and not you.'

Mrasa uols~ u lezer dia trus kene bom nuklear balik kat diri sendiri. So how? Pengajarannya ialah, kalau u nak melezer make sure yang carutan u tu tak boleh dipatahkan ye! kalau tak simpan je la carutan u untuk adik2 baru nak enrol kelas carut 101 kat Nonok University.
Apa yang kita selalu gagal kenalpasti ialah repercussion yang bakal berlaku right after we say something to someone. It can either be good or disastrous.
Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. Its like a broken egg- cannot be reversed

Nasihat ke-5: NO OVERPOWERING atau JANGAN MENINGGI DIRI *i tak sure translation i betul ke tak, BM i tak meletops mcm uols semua...katanya~

Many relationships fail because one party tries to over power the other, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that 'It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character.'

Betul tu uols~ i experienced it myself. Trust me it is difficult enough for you to change yourself for your own good-self but having someone wanting you to change just to meet up with his or her own demands or needs, it is twice as difficult. In fact, it is impossible! sebab apa? a) u tak ikhlas berubah untuk kebaikan diri u b) itu bukan perubahan yang memberi manafaat kepada diri u, ibarat menipu diri sendri and living in lies.
Jadi pengajarannye mudah saja, terimalah dia seadanya. Setiap manusia dilahirkan punyai kelebihan dan kelemahan sendri. Kerana itu jugaklah manusia diciptakan untuk berpasangan supaya kelemahan diri dapat di'complete'kan oleh pasangan kita.
So kalau cikki u hodoh ke atau pun lemah gemalai ke terima je la. sebab dah dia mmg macam tu, tak kan la u nak dia posse cover robot angkat2 tangan bagai pose jantan kekar bila jumpa org lain?

Jalangnye org dlm cermin tu, mak ke nok?

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

Sampai sini dulu ya adik2 dan akak2 semua. Nanti esok lusa tulat tungging i update part 3 plak ye. Sebagai akhir kata, black is beautiful. *tetiba

2009-05-27T03:31:00.000-07:00

Salam muhibbah 1malaysia bagai,

Harini i baca satu email yg sangat menusuk kalbu. Nasihat yang amat berhasil. Jadi i nak share nasihat2 ni utk semua org kerana i perchaya bahawa anda semua juga bakal berhasil daripada nasihat2 ini. I'm gonna put it in parts since banyak sangat nasihat2 dia. Baca banyak2 sekaligus bukan korang simpan dalam dada semua pun kan? Biarlah sedikit2 lama2 jadi bukit katanya.

Nasihat pertama: Trust aka Percaya

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.
Yes.. Uols paham tak? i sangat percaya relationship apa2 pun biarpun ngan binatang, rasa perchaya sama sendri sgtlah penting. Kalau ko cakap je perchaya sama sendri sayang bulan bintang bagai tapi posse2 kene duduk dlm kete utk create suasana sunyi kat bf ko kononnye dah nak tido kat umah tapi sebenarnye nak gi main bowling sat lagi *hi ice... i no komen!

Ah, abang... i dah nak tido ni, kita buat phone sex esok2 je la ye~ *pose betulkan wig nak gi tasik satlagi

Kesahnye... A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, 'Streamyx Call Centre.' There was silence. She repeated, 'Streamyx Call Centre.' There was still no answer.. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, 'Oh, so this is Streamyx Call Centre. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is.'

Ha..nasib baik pompuan tu pose dengar tiga pat kali kat tepon tu. Kalau dia angkat2 tepon je dengar sora pompuan pastu trus buat conclusion camner? x ke pasal2 baling pingan terbang bagai? Or kalau tetiba u call yang menjawabnye laki cakap 'Hi sayang, nak main lagi ke?' Tak ke pitam girlfren u dpt tau yg u sapu jantan jugak? how?

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Nasihat Ke-2: NO POINTING FINGERS or JANGAN MENUNDING JARI *nunding ciknek takpe.. ops.

A man asked his father-in-law, 'Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?'

The father-in-law answered in a smile, 'Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you.'
Yes...betul tu uols... selalu kita dok tegur benda yg tak baik je pasal partner kita, memanjang ada je tak kene. jarang skali nak puji kat dia apa yg baik dia buat. So macam mana nak kekal lama hubungan tu kalau stiap ari pun ada benda yg kita tak puas ati. kalau dia sempurna, sah sah la dia dah cari jantan lain uols~ ko ingat dia kemaruk sangat nak kat kau kah?

We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at.. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.

If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

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Nasihat ke-3: CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS? atau MEMBINA PERHUBUNGAN SEMPURNA?

Mari mengelar tangan~ *hi syai

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested 'I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one.' The SDU officer said, 'Your requirements, please.' 'Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest.' The officer listened carefully and replied, 'I understand you need television.'
Amik kau! Selain daripada TV, uols juga boleh consider cybercafe 24 jam, ngadap game PS ataupun main computer sampai pagi!
Semua org pun selalu nak ada list of criteria yang diaorg cari dlm seseorg. Tapi berapa banyak manusia dlm dunia ni dapat cari 100% benda dia nak in one person? And berapa org dlm dunia ni yg actually suluh diri sendri dlm cermin and list out qualities dan defects yg dia ada before mintak langit dan bumi? haaaaaa......

There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

So uols.. ini baru part 1.. ada banyak lagi part2 yang akan datang. Which i think kalau kita baca and cuba selami and reflect it to ourselves, kita akan menyedari apa yg kita tak nampak depan mata selama ni dan mula utk bersyukur or maybe start making a difference not just for our own-self tapi juga untuk org2 yg kita sayangi...

Sekian, Terima Kasih!

The Irony of friendship

2009-05-25T10:27:00.000-07:00

Salam sejahtera.

Kene tuka mood blog i balik. Jiwa racauan dah masuk kembali. Awan gelap menyelubungi blog i sudah.

*u awas cik sal, i bukan carut diri sendri ye! anyhow, black is beautiful. Ko puteh sangat kah sampai kene amik vitC ngan supplement glutathion sampai 3 bulan tu? ops.

Anyhow, not wanting to digress too much, back to my original content: -

Have u ever wonder how it feels to be the last person to know about something? or maybe the last person to be given the opportunity or the exclusivity towards any news or moments experienced by your love ones? be it friends, lover or family?

I know how it feels. I've experienced it. Not once but many times throughout my 27 and counting living years (yes, despite my mathematical-challenged about my own age, i got it right this time). I have always believe and will continue to believe that the whole reason for a person to have someone they called 'close-to' is when things are being shared together. sad, sorrow, happy or joy.

But when those moments were not shared with each other, how would someone justify the proximity that they have or had throughout years of them being together? Many would have claimed that they have known someone for so long but yet in reality knew so little about that someone at the same time.

Isn't it ironic? Don't you think?

Balik Kampung~

2009-05-17T09:37:00.000-07:00

Yea~ Pembukaan minggu ni disambut dengan peninju2 tomoi! Hak dush! matilakau cik sal kalau u post gamba pelik2 pasal i sebab i akan tomoi u macam gamba kat bawah tu! *tetiba

Baiklah uols semua, aritu kan i bercerita pasal nak balik kampung ke siam kan? i bawak beberapa org ikut i balik kg bersama. Ye la, kasi tunjuk sket la apa yang ada serba serbi kat sini... yang pastinya mereka semua sungguh teruja sampai terpaksa makan kat fast food restaurant guna credit card sbb cash dah abis bayar kat agogo boy... * hi axion (/me lari pecut 1km skang~)

tengah belatih tomoi utk persediaan perang...

Kali ni i nak highlight benda2 yang i xcerita masa i balik kampung pada tahun2 lepas. jangan get yourselves distracted sangat dengan gamba2 ni sbb i post in random je. cerita and gamba might not come in direct correlation ya.

Apa yg i boleh kata trip kali ni mmg tak sama macam trip2 i sebelum ni. this is actually my first time gi ngan grup2 yg hanya berfikir 100% menggunakan bontot dan ciknek mereka sepenuhnye. mana buddha tetonggek, mana cultural visit, mana belibelah memeri? semua pun takde. diorg lebih sronok tgk bebudak tonggek and menonggeng, visit sex culture and belibelah jantan kat sini. rosak imej kg i tau.

dan makan & minum tanpa henti...

Sesampai je kat BKK, dah serbu sawana. Kau ado? jet lag i pun tak abis lagi katanya (kan?) i ikut je la. tapi kali ni mamat counter yg i beborak sepanjang hari tu dah tak keje lagi dah kat situ, so i perabis masa minum, makan dan jalan keluar masuk semua lobang yang ada kat situ.

Yang lain? sebok macam pegi pasar tani uols, beli bawang la beli sayur la.. sampai sayur sesama sendri pun diorg nak beli ok! keji tau u roy! uols paham tak? meh sini i cerita sikit. biasala pasar tani ni ada tempat yang gelap gelita, ada yang terang benderang.

masa i tengah minum corona lite2 ngan aijut yg sepanjang masa order gin tonic itew (sbb itu je minuman 'halal' yg dia tau), datin roy datang cerita kat i dia terbeli sayur axion. kononnye tak sengaja la. alasan dia "uols, i pegang badan dia and rasa dia tak gempal sangat..so i go on je la... tapi bila i tengah sronok meramas pisang buat cokodok bagai, i pegang kepala budak tu..tgk2 botak uols! i tengok muka bebetul, rupa2 nya axion! menyesal tak sudah sgt! rasa mcm nak muntah!" tapi muka masa bercerita berchahaya nih! silau mata i kaedahnye. ko nak muntah ke ko nak apa sebenarnya? ops.

dan makan lagi...(xde babi dlm makanan tapi kedai ni jual babi dan ayam katok la..asingkan aja babi2 nya)

kitorg ada jgk pegi tempat beli belah yg baru. mur2 sundels. mana ko nak dapat dress harga 15 hengget? cantik2 plak tu. bersepah2 sini sana khey! nama tempat tu adalah platinum plaza. nama je keles tapi barang yg dia jual tu mcm kat pertama complex ja.. baju bajan lelaki pun mur2 gak. matila borong mcm kat pasar borong lagi...

tapi highlightnye, dlm banyak2 baju ngan suar laki yg dijual, huda tetap jugak nak beli suar pompuan. bukan utk pakai drag tapi buat ke keje ye! alasan dia, "hanya suar pompuan muat tuk i". bley? ko ada brani jalan senget 30 darjah ke office pakai suar pompuan? patut la ko dpt top 8 in malaysia kat maybank tu kan? siap maki2 ngan penjual kat situ dalam bahasa melayu lagi nih. "hey, tak mau tak mau. tukar yang lain. mahal2!" macam la org tu paham ko cakap apa kan?

dan makan lagi~ tgk muka aijut yg tingtong 24jam sbb minum gin tonik sepanjang masa

selain tu, ada jugak pengajaran besar yg i dapat masa pegi ngan diorg ni.

1. kalau u ting-tong 24jam (baca aijut), u akan menjadi sangat annoying dan menggedik tahap dewa sampaikan peah (ex-ratu gedik dan annoying) pun boleh hentuk kepala kat dinding.

2. kalau u ting-tong 24jam minum gin tonik (baca aijut lagi), u akan tegur semua org "hi where are u from? im from malaysia" pastu kene tinggal kat club sorang2 and ended up balik hotel tengah ari ngan manusia mana2 tah.

3. kalau u ting-tong masa kat club minum beer (baca axion), u akan tersembam macam nangka busuk depan pintu hotel

4. kalau u hari2 pegi ke farmasi body design jumpa laila, u akan beli macam2 ubat pelik

5. kalau u pegi agogo bar (baca axion lagi), u jadi rambang mata tunggu kat situ sampai semua org dah balik pun, u tak nak balik jugak. pastu bila nak balik pun bukan ngan tangan kosong. biarla terpaksa kering cash skalipun.

6. kalau u pegi khawsan road, u bukan saja boleh shopping barang, u boleh shopping degree, licence or student card baru (baca peah)

and pengajaran paling besar ialah..,

6. kalau u pegi agogo bar, bersedia la utk tgk org drag ciktut jantan dengan gembiranya! i pitam utk pengajaran ini... sangat salah asohan.

Temuramah bersama Puteri Gunung Seladang aka Puaka Nyiang Rabak

2009-05-09T10:57:00.000-07:00

Since aura serangan sudah bermula, i terpaksa la buat serangan balas khen... elok2 blog aku jadi tempat melara dan melaram..skang dah jadi tempat mencharut macam dulu balik... (matila blog kene tutup lagi pasni~)

Tuan2, puan2 dan ponen2 sekalian,

(yes, blog i ada lelaki, pompuan dan binatang jadian yg baca.. abisla imej i kat opis pasni)

memandangkan i telah difeaturekan dalam kesah ilmu hitam pn. ciksalmah cheekbone implant itew, i telah pun mengadakan temuramah exclusive untuk mendalami dengan lebih lanjut tentang ilmu susuk dan minyak senyonyong (dibuat dari excess implant cheekbone dia) yang sekian lama dipractice oleh puaka nyiang rabak kita iniew.

kalau uols semua nak tau...teruskan membaca..kalau tak nak tau pun..baca jugak. aku tak kira, penat mengarang ok!

i tak larats tau! org asyik kata i buat dagu! i dosi buat ok! i buat cheekbone ja! motif xde sapa notice cheekbone meletop i ni? nak kene tambah kasi sebesar penumbuk kah?

i: uols, i dengar u mmg diva bab2 pakai susuk ngan minyak senyonyong ni.. i dengar la.. bukan i buat citer.. tapi rakan2 artis yg tak abis2 nak bukak api pasal uols... hah apa kes ni?

nyiang rapek: eh eh.. uols. i tak main benda2 khurafat ni uols.. bedosa khey.. masuk neraka.. i dah penat2 book stage ngan whitney houston, u nak suruh i ubah reservation i duduk ngan emily rose pulak kah dalam sri neraks itew? u ingat nak line up tu pendek kah?

i cuma guna teknik moden..susuk moden katanya uols. khennn... i taruk susuk kat pipi langsung dagu i pun nampak macam i buat skali.. shampoo 2 in 1 sangat uols!

i: kaedahnye~ dah tu apa kesah minyak senyonyong u tu? u kan pakar bab2 menyangkut jantan macam sangkut baju kat hanger khen? ko sebut jans mana yang tak tersangkut ngan u, biar la makeup chucky ke wig kejung ke, waima au-natural pun tak pernah lagi gagal! tgk la contoh macam pekerja binaan, askoke mahupun kutu keparat jalan yang telah u pikat sebelum ni.. how?

i pose selendang tutup sebelah muka je uols...kalau bukak semua takut diorg lari marathon olympic plak kang.

nyiang rabak: hanjing u kebede! pechlob i la? u awas!! siap u i perasapkan ngan ilmu i nanti..ops. uols, dah melk ni tumpuan ramai, sapa tak kenal syahora, nama pentas mak kat lorong kunyit dulu? ko ingat teknik ngendut mak tu takde kegunaan lain ke? haaa..sini mak cerita kat ko. ko penah dengar perkataan PR tak? mak punya PR ke langit ok!

i: wah..memeri..patut la semua sampah jalanan tu tersangkut kat u khen? sbb PR ke langit u tu rupanya.. i sungguh mengkagumkan u *cakap dengan mulut senget 70 darjah

duta welfare yang sungguh passionate menceritakan pasal pengalamannya bersama kutu2 jalanan

nyiang rabak: uolss.... kalau melk tak kutip diorg semua tu sapa laie nak amik? izzu dah sapu semua market yg reachable guna kereta BLM dia, shai dah sapu market club2 senget yang ada kat mesia ni. yang tinggal utk mak cuma saki baki tepi jalan je la. diorg pun manusia. perlukan belaian dan kaseh sayang. mak cuma menjalankan tugas sebagai insan yang perihatin khey.. diorg gembira, mak pun gembira dapat tumbuk sambal, giling cili bagai. huhuhu

i: betul jugak uols.. market skang mmg sgt competitive! kalau takde extra edge macam tetek munchung or kepala botak mmg susah nak cari makan skang kan? xpe uols.. janji tak kena tangkap ngan jabatan agama islam kene pakai terompah kain pelikat bagai sudah kan? kan syahora kan?

babis kau! mak tutup muka skang! i tak bersalah ustaz~

nyiang rabak: Kau ni kenapa?! nak kene pukul ngan aku ka? *hai leha, hi awie...

i: i lari dulu na~

...

ehem. temuduga terpaksa dihentikan sbb puaka nyiang rabak @ cik salmah dah naik hantu uols.. dia nak ligan i ngan wig kejung dia. i belum mau mati lagi..nanti bila dia dah reda balik.. i sambung tanya soalan2 panas kat dia lagi ek...

t.t.f.n~ (tata for now)

2009-05-06T08:05:00.000-07:00

Sawadeekap~

Pom rak kun semua~

gambar hiasan: tidak melambangkan mood i hari ini. tq

I sebetulnya mood tidak baik hari ini. Mendapat berita buruk arini.. tapi tidak apa, kemudian baru cerita nah. La ni saya nak cerita kesah masa bersuka ria di sungai gabas* hulu langat dulu. Ni dah jadi lama dah. dekat 2 minggu. tapi memasing sibuk, tidak sempat nak menulis kat sini.

Kalau tidak kerana cik sal yang gigih mau jugak ke air terjun, tidak ada la kami semua sanggup naik bukit tangga banyak benar sampai kaki memasing keram (cramp) sampa nak jalan pun susah keesokan harinya.

Inilah muka2 manusia jadian yg sakit kaki panjat tangga batu cave tu

Nak mula perjalanan dah satu penyiksaan. terima kasih kepada pemandu pelancung (hi peah~) yang membawa saya, ciksal dan karen memusing lubuk mana sampai kena kuar masuk toll tanpa henti. Kalau masuk keluar toll jalan betul tidak apa. Ini buat u-turn 3-4 kali sebab salah jalan! hanjing sangat!

Dah sampai kat sana, ya ampun. saya tidak sangka hulu langat itu sangat jauh. Sapa kata hulu langat belakang ampang sjork? pembohong (nada huda)! rasa macam drive pergi melaka ye! jalan melingkang lengkong, banjir la, turun naik bukit la pastu air terjun nya? kaya dengan family ceria je! penuh makcik pakcik nenek moyang bagai. apakah!! nasib baik ada beberapa orang cando yang memandang hina kepada ciksal membuatkan i sejuk hati sikit.. *jangan tarik sanggul saya ciksal~

walaupun camera i posse parkinson haritu, kami tetap berpose selepas hujan

Paling tidak tahan, sudah abis memanjat tangga bagai, terpaksa jadi tarzan panjat lereng bukit pulak. Karen yang pakai skirt mini dah jadi pompuan buat show tayang cik pik kat semua. Kenyang la abang2 yang lapaq poen haritu...

Masakan ciksal menjadi ratahan ramai walaupun beer dan jugak wiskey yang habis dulu. Ini menunjukan taraf moral yang tinggi dikalangan ahli2 neraka ini. Mereka sungguh berlumba2 nak pergi tingkat paling tinggi dalam neraka jahanam. Ada yang sudah siap booking bilik satu tingkat dengan mariah carey bagai. anda bagaimana? mau serta kah?

lihatlah budak2 zaman skarang...

jangan ingat kain yang tak cukup atas badan tu sebab ting tong ye.. sebab yang baju lengkap tu yg tak habis mengadap botol sampai tak sudah katanya!

Masa mandi tu seronok la sebab ada banyak bebudak muda. kami mandi kat celah celah. pastu sikit2 masuk mandi dengan diorg. diorang pun ok je... tapi lepas lama2 tu... seseko pun mula menyusul keluar ke darat and pakai baju... then siap kemas2 barang nak berambus. saya tidak tahu kenapa... walaupun mereka suruh aijut amik gamba mereka sebelum pulang, saya merasakan ada sebab tertentu yang menyebabkan mereka berketempiaran lari pulang kerumah sebelum hujan turun... lepas lama saya berfikir.. baru la saya tau..

rupa2nya ada puteri gunung ledang turun mandi kat tempat kitorg..patut la diorg lari sebab puteri tu belum tukar lagi sepenuhnya..masih lagi pose ruminah sidek nenek kebayan dulu.... korang nak tengok jembalang yang halau diorg tu??

tunggu sat na... saya kena baca mandrem dulu.

wahai jembalang tanah, jembalang air, jembalang angin...

mambang hutan, mambang hantu, mambang ponen...

tunjukan dirimu lahirlah zahirmu....

aku tidak takut aku tidak kelu....

muncullah puteri nenek kebayan....

datanglah ke sini kuberi makan...

NAH NENEK KEBAYAN KAU!

kau ado jembalang nenek kebayan puteri gunung ledang pakai tube mandi sungai? lariikkk..

Dan Sebenarnya dia bertudung uols!

2009-04-23T09:54:00.000-07:00

Hari ni i gigih post banyak2 skali. mrasa~

Kali ni tema multimedia sket since i pegang tahta tu kan ciksal kan? khen?

I baru dengar pompuan ni nyanyi semalam kat mamak masa lepak ngan farhan. Agak bagus jugak la. suara dia macam nelly furtado + collin bailey rae gitu. yang paling mengejutkan ialah pompuan ni bertudung. tak sangka ada pompuan betudung mampu nyanyi macam ni.

another good addition to our local music industry.

suka la ko kan omar? aku taruk lagu dia kat sini kan? kan? btw, aku dah download album dia.. huhuhuhu

Annual pilgrimage

2009-04-23T09:12:00.000-07:00

Sawadikap~

panggilan siam kembali lagi. tak saba nak menunggu 2nd may nanti. tinggal brapa ari je from now. stiap taun pegi pun still rasa exited sangat. rasa macam balik kampung utk hari raya masa kecik2 dulu. sungguh mengujakan!

taun ni gi ke tanah siam ngan group lain plak. kalau taun lepas tema nya adalah exploring siam : the heritage and the happenings, taun ni rasanya tema dia sedikit berlainan kot. sebab crowd yg pegi ngan i ni banyak berpikir dengan konek dan bontot dari berpikir guna mata dan tangan (shopping)

jadi i mengumumkan tema kali ni adalah:

exquisite siam: exploring the red lights!

Tu dia!!!!

haaaa... meletops tak tema i buat? mesti ixu n huda senget suka bila tau tema ni jadi official theme. huhu. ah ah ah~ (sebut ngan gaya huda sambil sengetkan mulut) uols jangan pikir bukan2 ye. walaupun temanya berona panas, tapi lebih kepada explorasi keindahan lahiriah dan mengamati keindahan ciptaan tuhan ke atas ciptaan Nya yang bernama manusia di kawasan2 yang mengizinkan pelapahan keatas kenikmatan ini berlaku... katanya.

Mau kerang ka? ada banyak belum rebus lagi ni! Brapa Bhat mau kasi saya tau.

Ke lu mau hot dog sama loti? boleh kasi mulah, angkat dua kasi bayar dua la. very good buy what?

dalam pada itu rombongan kali ni tetap diisi dengan pengisian berfaedah seperti menyusur sejarah silam peningalan yang terdahulu, pakej stimulus ekonomi kepada penduduk setempat melalui aktiviti membeli-belah dan paling penting medical-tourism. Yang ni takde kat mesia.

Thailand mmg terkenal dengan medical-tourism dia. jadi kitorang takmau la ketinggalan untuk ikut sama. Mana la tau boleh balik dengan tetek besi sebelah lagi ataupun pinggul yang lebih montok or hidung or cheekbone yang lebih meriah. ops.

So lepasni kalau uols nampak ada benda2 aneh tetiba munchul dekat tubuh badan sesapa yang sebelum ni tak pernah ada. U shadap je ye. Tak elok bermegah2. Tuhan marah. Bley?

Klau i balik jadi macam ni obvious tak uols? hiks

Ha.. ni hasil ahli rombongan yang lain lepas pulang dari siam. Tak pechlob khey~

Khap Kun Kap

Duit oh duit

2009-04-23T09:05:00.000-07:00

Rumah saya sudah siap~ yea. finally. dua taun aku tunggu baru siap sekarang. ari sabtu ni nak gi amik kunci. sronots sronots. pasni leh la ada umah sendri utk tido.. dah lama jadi permastautin tetap kat tingkat 9 tu. kalau i beli perabut isi rumah tu penuh dah kot rasanya. *matila bangsat mana yg buat mcm tu pastu lesap trus sekelip mata kan?

tapi rumah dah siap pun belum tentu dapat duduk kat sana stiap ari. larat la nak ulang alik kl-ipoh stiap ari kan? harus la jadi wiken tenant ja. at least sampai dapat keje baru. oh tuhan, bila nak kasi aku pindah balik ke kl ni~

nak gi jumpa la tukang tilek karen tu, tanya sama dia. kot2 dia leh kasi hint hint sket.

rumah siap satu hal. tapi bab nak mengisi rumah tu yg sakit skang. hayo uols, i tak tau yg nak renovate rumah ialah mahal nak mampus.

i survey2 tanya kawan2 i yg renovate rumah bagai plus tanya contractor nye rough estimation pun koman2 30-50K. mana mau cari? botak la kepala i macam izu kalau cari that lump sum punya amount!

mati trus angan2 nak taruk bath tub la buat toilet ala2 concept spa la. bar bleh pusing2 la (senang nak nyorokan booze bila keluarga datang..tekan butang dan jeng jeng..trus tuka jadi dinding), taruk cermin atas ceiling bilik tido la... banyak benda dlm kepala nak buat ni.. tapi duit? non ado!

nape la contractor ni tak ade konsep easy-payment macam kredit kad. kan senang. baya 4-5 kali utk satu price. boleh la angan2 i menjadi kenyataan. so skang terpaksa la downsize angan2 tu kepada benda yg penting je dulu. tu pun tak tau brapa puluh riban kos nye. haih, nape la aku ni tak beranak jadi anak jutawan ke, anak menteri ke apa...

life is unfair. =(

tell me when to pull the life plug off?

2009-04-20T08:50:00.000-07:00

dear kak sri siantan, (matila opening...)

i writing this to ask u a question about a friend that i have. i think he has a problem. a big one. as a friend, all i want is to help him. i love him. all of us do. but he seems not to love himself. as if we all love him more than he loves himself.

each one of us had given out our portions to make him stand on his two feet but everytime he gets it, he had forgotten how miserable he was before those aid comes into his lap.

if i were him, i'll be the most grateful and luckiest person in the world. i have so many people around me that cares about me so much that i don't have to worry about what is going to happen tomorrow coz somebody already has.

or maybe because i know i wont be dragged 6 feet under that makes me feels so complacent about myself. but how long will i be getting those help? one by one, all of my resources are going to be drained till none. should then i learn on how should i love myself better?

...or maybe i'm this?

but wait, my resources hardly depletes. i'll just use my charms, it always work. i'll come up with whatever excuses or dreams i have about what i wanted in life, the ideal picture on how i wanted to drive my life about. people will sympathize, people will carve a road, a tunnel or even give me wings so i can fly.

i shall not live in deprive. look at me. as of now, i'm a living proof. no one knows better than me. myself. how holistic or deep others might interpret about my life, they can never get it right coz they are not me. they don't know how to be me. they wouldn't understand. so why bother? just help me when i ask them to. i'll be fine.

idon't need their sympathy.

if i were him...

i might be wrong.

those assumptions that i made might not truly reflects what he had in mind about all these. anyhow, assumption is the grandmother of screw ups right?

so kak sri siantan, how do i go about this? how can i make my friend comes to his senses? coz lord believe me, im about to loose my way on helping him and i dont want that to happen. coz i love him. we all love him. but sometimes love would only do nothing but pure devastation.

yours sincerely,

desperate angel (katanya~)

the haunted

2009-04-13T08:50:00.000-07:00

leceh la. why is it so difficult for other people to start moving on with their life? closing chapter is not that hard but opening a new one seems to be an impossible job for some.

its fine for me for people to reminisce, but leave it just at is. don't get too indulged in it that u started to think there might be a possibility of repeating those memories again.

some things are just meant to be history. for good.

revisiting those moments and using that to regain sympathy from the other party would not change a person's mind towards how it has ended. claiming that u have tried to move on but cant; as if the world is moving leaving u standing at the side watching means u haven't tried hard enough.

all u need is to try harder. stop comparing ur new encounter with what u used to have. u will always find the previous one better coz ur still stuck with the past. nobody is comparable to anyone. everybody has their own traits. unique to every person.

u just have to acknowledge the difference and begin to appreciate what ur having now. coz once it is gone, again, u will be left with nothing except regret.

Ralat

2009-04-08T09:34:00.000-07:00

damage control~~~

ayo ayo ayo x1000! tak sangka ada org sentip (hi cik sal~) merangkap kecik hati pasal sesetengah rangkap dalam post i sebelum ni. Somehow or rather sebaris dua ayat i telah menimbulkan rasa tanda tanya dalam hati sesetengah umat yang menyebabkan diri mereka tertempeleng dengan statement i itu.

maka terpaksa la i menulis kembali untuk clarify apa yang i tulis supaya hati semua pehak terjaga. Soal hati ni bukan cerita mudah. Ye la kengkadang diluar semuanya nampak ok, tapi di dalam siapa yang tahu.

mungkin disebabkan yang membaca itu mengangap penulisan i datang trus dari hati jadi bermakna setiap perkataan i membawa maksud yang specific. tapi sebetul nya bukan la macam tu.

sesetengah ayat memang ditujukan khas but some were written as general thoughts. jadi kena la diamati dengan teliti setiap butir perkataan itu dan dilihat konteks penyampaian nye secara keseluruhan. Samada membawa maksud tersirat, tersurat, melengkapi ataupun standalone. (matila berbelit2)

ye la, i tak reti buat cerita2 lucu macam cik sal, tak reti buat cerita bullet points macam peah mahupun bercerita menggunakan gambar sepenuhnya macam izu. penceritaan saya lebih kepada apa yang berlegar dan berserabut dalam kepala dan hati saya.

kalau serabut macam rambut afro tu mmg la susah sikit nak dirungkaikan maksud terselindungnya. tapi kalau serabut curl2 jarang ala huda (larikkkkk~) mungkin lebih mudah untuk didalami.

sebetulnye, i bukan cuba memerli ataupun membuatkan org rasa bersalah sebab tindakan ataupun perlakuan yang dilakukan keatas i. kalau perlakuan itu i ikhlas diperlakukan sebegitu, sesungguhnya aku tidak menyimpan apa2 rasa negatif terhadap sipelaku. lain sekali jikalau perlakuan keatas aku itu bukan diatas kehendak dan keikhlasan diri, langsung mmg la wajib dihanjingkan.

Jadi tak sepatutnya timbul soal siapa yang diambil peluang ke atas mahupun keikhlasan pertolongan yang patut dipersoalkan. Yang penting, niat keatas perlakuan tersebut dan keperchayaan terhadap perhubungan antara manusia merupakan foundasi penting. Jikalau ianya tidak syumul, maka timbul lah kepincangan dan kemusnahan.

Diharap pehak2 yang terpukul dengan statement yang wujud dari sebahagian mahupun keseluruhan penulisan yang lepas dapat dileraikan dengan penulisan kali ini. Segala kesulitan amatlah dikesali.

Your kind corporation is highly appreciated. (matila statement sapa tak tau)

Sekian, salam bahagia.

Part 3... giliran org lain plak utk kembang bontot

2009-04-02T08:33:00.000-07:00

tak mau tulis lagi dah pasal omar sebab

a. a friend of mine anta sms cakap "read ur blog about that guy, so takde pape ke?" ayo~ bukan ke aku dah tulis yang walaupun personality dan qualitas dia cocok sekali, tapi aku ga bisa berteman sama dia dong. aku ga mau bicarakan semua disini. biar aku sama omar and sabrina aja yang tahu.....huhuhuh

b. en. omar telah terbang ke angkasa bila baca apa yang aku tulis pasal dia. walaupun aku ikhlas menulis tapi bila dia teramat seronok sampai kan ada org suggest suruh print screen kot2 aku tarik balik..terasa macam terlebih puji pulak.. nanti makin bulat ikan paus atas darat tu... so yumar, bila ko down lagi ko baca je la balik apa yg ditulis dulu ye.. aku tak buang nye. at least write-up tu bejaya ceriakan ko bila ko moody tak tentu pasal kat opis kan? ops.

p.s kepada cik babe, ye ye.. aku akan gigih update.. masalah nye benda ni tak kasi aku gaji.. kalau kasi gaji mmg aku update setiap ari.

baiklah. org kedua yg nak ditulis tu nama dia sabrina. dia juga merangkap girlfriend aku. yang dikongsi besama dengan omar. so cinta tiga segi. how? haaa.. ni cinta 3 segi yang takde gaduh2 k. very the family aman dan sentosa.

kalau biasa kita dengar suami ada dua isteri..skang ni korg dengar kesah baru. isteri dua suami. hahahahah.. meriah~ oh.. kitorg siap brangan bab2 anak nih.. so nanti bila gi persembahan sekolah anak2 kitorg mesti best. satu anak i, satu lagi anak omar. tapi dua2 pun mak dia sab.. matila keluarga 69~

now, apa yg menarik sangat pasal pompuan ni?

a. dia tak pernah miss call aku almost stiap ari. biarpun seminit dua

b. she cares about me

c. she loves me just the way i am

i ada banyak kawan pompuan yg rapat. juga ada kawan2 baik pompuan. tapi most of them, amik masa gak sblm jadi bebetul kawan baik. sbb ye la bukan senang nak cari pompuan yang u bleh jadi diri sendri. most girls yg bekawan ngan aku kebanyakan nye plastic. depan memang comolot. tapi belakang, wah macam bom cirit ko hanjing kan aku kan? so kene sket berhati2 la kalau nak buat kawan pompuan jadi kawan baik.

sab ni jenis gila2. fragile. secretive sebetulnye. walaupun dia suka cerita pasal diri dia kat aku. aku tau dia banyak filter info pasal diri dia and perasaan dia. tak macam omar. but i respect la cara dia. of course, mana boleh dump 100% cerita ceritun kita kat org tu dan dan. nanti takde la benda kita nak discover about that person kan?

moment masa i tergerak utk angkat taraf dia jadi antara org yang i paling sayang adalah bila dia risau racau sampai nanges pasal i. trus melonjak ranking dia dlm hidup i. naik roket la kau sab! Undilah DAP! *ttba.

tak ramai pun org yg sanggup risau sampai nak nanges utk aku.. mak aku je kot.hahahah.... skang dah ada sorg lagi. yeay~ tapi kalau nanges secara general utk aku ada 4 la... my mum, aritha, ex aku and sab.

nape sab nanges? ooo.. ada satu ari tu phone saya silent satu and satu lagi tetinggal. so sab calling2 tanpa henti tapi i tak angkat. since dia leh baca patern aku yg jarang tak angkat call ditambah ajinomoto omar telah menguatkan kerisauan dia pada saya.

bila dapat reach i, dia trus mracau2 nak nanges. i sungguh terharu. rasa sangat disayangi sbb ada org yg amik berat sgt pasal diri ini. Biasanya org tak pedulik pun i idup ke mati. bila sangkak duit, barula nama i sebesar tidak kuar dlm kepala masing2...

so sebab tu saya sangat sayang kepada nor sabrina ini. telah aku angkat kau setaraf dengan kawan2 baik aku yg aku sanggup buat apa saja utk mereka. i take a strong pride of my friendship and i'll go to the furthest extend to treasure it.

sekian terima kasih.

MUST WATCH!!

2009-02-24T05:47:00.000-08:00

Uols mesti dengar and watch this clip ye! this guy is GOOD with capital G!. I rasa version dia lagi sedap dari Gnarl's. Adik2 negro yang nyanyi uols. nama dia Durand Bernarr

Soulmate

2009-02-24T05:16:00.000-08:00

Dah lama tak taruk iklan lagu...

Incompatible, it don’t matter though

‘cos someone’s bound to hear my cry

Speak out if you do

you’re not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable

is already in my life?

right in front of me

or maybe you’re in disguise

Who doesn’t long for someone to hold

who knows how to love you without being told

somebody tell me why I’m on my own

if there’s a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end

how do I find the perfect fit

there’s enough for everyone

but I’m still waiting in line

Who doesn’t long for someone to hold

who knows how to love you without being told

somebody tell me why I’m on my own

if there’s a soulmate for everyone

If there’s a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory

They’re all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn’t long for someone to hold

who knows how to love you without being told

somebody tell me why I’m on my own

if there’s a soulmate for everyone

Part 2

2009-02-23T10:12:00.000-08:00

haih, selepas mengscout blog2 kawan2 i, i baru sedar yang content blog i sgtla depressing gitu. teramatla berbeda dengan personaliti i di dunia nyata...beda ke? hahahaha. susah ye nak menten gembira semanjang depan org ramai. to show that i have nothing to worry about, nothing that makes me sad whatsoever.

kalau virtual life pun i nak kene pretend that everything is happy and rosy, harus la i sign up wad gila sekarang. doc panel clinic aku kene baca blog aku ni ye. so that u can make a thorough assessment of my emotional state. "oh keje ngan shell mmg tension, everybody feels the same way. i don't think ur depress, not until u want to kill yourself" - my ass!

baiklah, that thing aside, i nak sambung penulisan i yg lepas.

Omar was the only straight guy (matila leading statement bunuh diri) yang i really2 feel comfortable of telling everything (well at least almost everything) about me. En Yumar, jangan kembang bontot lagi ye.

Not just that he knows how to empathize, which i don't really need people doing it to me. he can rationalize, make sense and offer advise from what he gathered out of me. Big thing. everything must make sense to me. As much as i value people with the ability to do emotional rationalization, i need someone who can steer me into re-evaluating my thoughts and actions logically. And did i tell u that he is capable of doing both? yes, very rare skill.

I don't know how much that i give in return. tapi, i rasa i reciprocate the same way with his life issues - most of the time trying to untangle his emotional dilemma. Oh, yang paling i suka about him ialah, sangat2 la penyabar dan accommodating.

Aku tak pernah jumpa lagi org yang betul2 boleh tahan perangai aku yang gelong ni. Even best friends yang sedia ada pun akan at one point akan meracau bila wayar aku tetiba short. Tapi yang ni setakat ni, tak lagi.

Aku cakap aku tak leh drive pagi, dia akan drive. Biar la dia tak cukup tido lebih dari aku ke tak. Tak marah or question much. I really appreciate that. Sebab i ingat lagi satu ketika dulu masa sedikit muda, i akan loya or muntah makan roti atau ketam. Not all the time, but most of the time i akan rasa loya. Jadi i cerita kat kawan baik i ni, tapi dia kata i mengada2. Aritu makan elok je, arini ko kata loya la? Sentap la jgk masa tu. Motif i nak pura2 buat cerita. Bukan i nak seek attention pun.

Nasib baik skang i dah tak loya makan ketam ngan roti dah. Jadi bila ada org bleh accept that there are few things/conditions that will set my motor in the wrong mode, i sangat2 la kagum dan grateful to find such people. Tu tak campur lagi part bila i go completely sarcastic or cynical ngan dia, ini adalah few people yang tak jump straightaway. Instead, he laugh about it. Sangat mengagumkan ye.

It will take sometime for people to get used to my style of addressing my points, being able to read my true intention out of those painful remarks. Cuma bila aku tambah umur dia kat org, dia agitate sket. huhuhu.. which i like to play that card every now and then. its fun. :P

Personality wise, kalau aku dapat org macam ni utk jadi my other half, rasanya dah complete kot hidup. Tapi malangnya, ada beberapa benda yang tak fit to my range of preference githu. I dont want to list it here coz he knows it himself. hahahaha.

alamak..dah kul 2 pagi dah. akan bersambung lagi. nak cerita pasal sorg pun dah bejela.. tak masuk lg sorg lagi ni. jenuh la aku pasni.

Permata Diantara Kaca

2009-02-19T09:31:00.000-08:00

Generally, i'm very reserved about myself to anyone.

I can count how many instances in my life that i actually shared something about me to people. Perhaps its because the way i was raised, alone, having no one to spill out my emotions to.

I'm not saying that my parents raised me wrongly coz through all that, i became strong and independent as what i am now. Or at least that was what i thought once upon a time.

I don't have many friends. Well that is a known fact to everyone. Simply because i just cant get myself acquainted to anyone that easy. Or perhaps i just couldn't pull out a facade just to be likable by many. But somehow or rather, despite my flaws and shortcomings, there are quite a sum of people that wants to be close to me. God surely have his own ways to pour blessings over his creatures.

I'm writing this just to show how much i appreciate those people that choose to stand by me, giving me the support that i need, becoming my safety net and teaching me about life.

In every stage of my life, i came across many new friends. Some remains just as normal friends, the one that you say hi and bye to every now and then. And some turned up to be closer than just normal friends. They became one of my best friends.

When i came to Ipoh. I was sad. Leaving my best friends behind was quite a big move for me. Just when i thought that i don't have to go through those lane again, fate just wouldn't agree with me much.

The first 1.5 years in Ipoh was a difficult period for me. I couldn't find anyone to be friended with. Someone that i can let my hair down with while or after work. But things changed after Yumar and Sab came knocking to my life.

This two fellas contributed quite a significant impact on me, molding me into what i am now. And i am very thankful that i got to know this two person which i officially claim as one of my valuable treasures i ever have.

alamak..dah kul 2 pagi. akan bersambung.

butterfly effect

2009-02-09T01:04:00.000-08:00

wah..i sungguh gigih menulis skang..hahaahahha

i hanya akan mampu menulis kalau ada pekara2 lara, sedih atau emosi yg berkecelaruan berlaku dalam hidup i, my family or my friends ja. i dont really feel like writing something happy or ceria or apa2 pekara yang positive sebab i rasa macam idea i tak boleh bercambah bila menulis pekara2 seperti itu.

so bila part2 gembira, i lebih suka taruk gamba with few captions. senang. anyhow, pictures supposed to tell you thousand stories kan? so, motif i nak mengarut pepanjang kalau gamba tu boleh bercerita sendri? ayo, tetiba emo plak. hahaha

racauan kali ni takde kene mengena ngan kisah peribadi i sangat but menyentuh kisah kawan baik i. emm.. maybe next time i nak tulis sapa kawan2 baik i. i seronok skang sebab i dah jumpa beberapa sahabat baru yang i can finally open up a few boxes yg i dah kept closed for so long. dah penuh dah warehouse i actually. its about time, i buat some housekeeping.

berbalik kepada kesah kawan i ni. i kesian sebetulnye kat dia. coz i can completely relate myself kepada kisah dia sebab i tau betapa siksanya nak melepaskan sesuatu yang kita dah gengam sekian lama. tapi kengkadang, kita kene belajar melepaskan benda yang kita treasure for so long just for the good of both ourself dan juga orang yang kita sayang tu.

but when exactly is the right time to let go?

kan? solan tu sangat susah nak jawab sebenarnya. each time kita rasa patut let go, masa tu jugak la ada je benda baik yang pujuk hati kita untuk procrastinate decision tu. then again, every single move yang kita decide tu lah yang akan create massive impact later in our future. yes, butterfly effect.

normally, bila kita dalam keadaan emosi celaru oleh sebab perangai orang yang disayangi tu macam celaka atau layak dibaling keluar balcony tingkat 10 ja, kita mudah buat kesimpulan dan dan tu jugak yang semua ni patut berakhir lama dah. tapi, lama dah tu tak jugak2 materialized. kenapa?

sebab kita selalu tertipu dengan perkataan hantu ini - HARAPAN. Yes, orang selalu berharap yang partner dia akan berubah. mungkin kalau kita cuba pujuk atau change a few things here and there, he or she will learn how to appreciate us better.

harapan tu jugak la yang akan menjerut kita lebih kuat dalam diam2. harapan tu jugak yang akan memusnah hancurkan setiap impian yang kita simpan selama ini. kerana harapan yang kita angankan tu, kita lalai akan realiti sebenar yang terjadi.

jadi bodoh kah kita kalau selalu mengharap bahawa sooner or later keadaan akan menjadi lebih baik? ataupun bodoh kah kita untuk tidak perchaya bahawa masa akan merubah seorang manusia itu?

i pun tak tau nak bagi jawapan yang definitive actually. sebab semuanya bergantung kepada situasi dan sedalam mana kita mengenal peribadi seseorang tu. bagi i kalau dari 10 kali kejadian, 7 kali dia ulang perangai buruk yang sama. Dan, 7 kali jugak kita kasi peluang dan HARAPAN agar dia berubah, jawaban i senang je. Jangan jadi BODOH. there is NO such thing as HOPE anymore!

sekian, terima kasih.

i found the answer..

2009-02-04T09:17:00.000-08:00

i asked myself a question in my previous post.. (actually i asked people who reads it, but none responded. so i have to find the answer myself la) and i found my answer anyway. thanks.

yes. every single question in this world has its own answer. it is just a matter of time for us to finally get it ourselves. as i was questioning myself whether it is possible to love someone that u have no idea how he or she looks like, i have forgotten the most important gist of the question itself. what was i looking for when i say 'to love someone?'.

love is blind people say. perhaps it is blind. coz, if it is not, we won't see Siti Nurhaliza married to Dato K, neither will we be hearing gossips (?) like our handsome looking astronaut is (or was?) dating a full figured (kata izzu) cook?

ah...blind people cant see... they fall in love... they got married... hence, the hypotheses has been tested. it is proven to be true.

premise 1: people fall in love

premise 2: blind people do fall in love

conclusion: love is blind

my point is, when it comes to what you feel inside, whatever external features the person might have is rather irrelevant if you are really honest with your feeling. it would be a bonus should you have someone that is good looking as you would be able to parade the other half to the whole world. something to be proud of- skin deep.

but if you didn't get something so surreal, you can still be proud that you have found someone that is worthwhile devoting every single moment of your life for. which to me, something that people should be proud of the most.

people can criticize or say whatever they want, but it is you who had fallen in love with that person and you are entitled to that feeling yourself. If the rest of the world were unable to share the same thought...so let them be...

Is it possible?

2009-01-29T09:23:00.000-08:00

I have a question.

Is it possible for someone to fall in love with a person whom he had never met before? Does something like that exist?

Would someone be able to fall in love before seeing the person and still be in love with him/her after meeting them for real? if the feeling stays, what makes it stay? and if it backfired, what would probably caused it to happen?

Most people would say that we love someone for who they are. People love the inner beauty more than the appearance itself. But then again, if everyone seems to see it that way, there wouldn't be such word as 'beauty' and 'ugly' in the first place..

I couldn't help but to wonder, are we gonna go that deep in making a first impression on a person we just meet - physically?

2009-01-26T08:09:00.001-08:00

Since aku kat kampung ni tak tau nak buat apa.. actually boleh je bukak laptop company and buat keje..tapi aku tak mau! so membuat benda ni selepas ditag oleh jez

1. Do you think you're hot?

- i dont think so...kalau i hot, mesti ramai nak kasi no phn kat i kat club mcm shai, edwell bagai...hmmm

2. Upload a favorite picture of you

This isn't actually my favourite pic. Its just one of those that was accessible when i clicked the upload button.

3. Why do you like that picture?

- as long as i dont look like a half dead fish in any picture taken, i will like it i guess

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?

- sangat recent..like last friday at Jez's place; westin hotel

5. The last song you listened to?

- warwick avenue - duffy

6. What are you doing right now beside this?

- confirming my reservation at Bagan tomorrow with Rozz

7. What name you prefer besides yours?

- Daniel. bukan puru ye. i have always wanted to have that name in my ic...

8. People to tag :

a. izu

b. omar

c. ralph (tak tau la ko nak buat ke tak)

d. kash

e. irwan

p/s : korang x wat pun xpe..aku wat pun sbb bosan..heheh..

9. Who is number one?

- one of my besties

10. Number 3 is having a relationship with..

- budak ni duduk kat jepun...itu saja aku mampu reveal..huhu

11. Who is number 2?

- one of my besties gak

Go or Stay?

2009-01-25T23:32:00.000-08:00

Dilemma. Yup. The same dilemma that i have for every beginning of the year. To go or to stay for another year or so. Tapi stiap kali pun, despite how often i said it. Aku masih lagi stay. Year after year, i kept on saying that this time, i will make a move. Im gonna take a risk. But each time the moment for me to make that move, something has to come up, disrupting the whole guts that i've been keeping for so long.

I remember the first year when im with this shiham company, i told myself, get my confirmation and leave after that. Semua orang pun tau aku tak sronok keje kat situ, terpaksa nak mengipas org tak tentu pasal and jadi plastic sepanjang masa.

Then something came up. I was transferred to Ipoh. In my mind that point of time, i only have one month before i can quit. Lets take the transfer money and leave rich. Mana tau, the new boss that i have, made me see the different side of how things can be done.

No doubt he is the most demanding boss ever in my career to date. But in exchange, i learnt so many things. I've been made visible, recognized and valued. Most of all, i dont have to play tukang kipas coz he cares shit about those. So tak jadi nak go masa tu.

Tapi contemplation of going still there. for different reason la. Keje macam org gaji sampai life aku tunggang langgang. masa tu sakit dah mengesot2 pun gi keje sebab takut kene maki tak deliver. hahahahha. anyhow, that wasn't the real reason why i wanted to leave that year.

in 2006 i wanted to leave coz i was in a relationship. it was a distant one and it is kinda tiring for both of us especially me coz aku kene travel up and down every week nak jumpa dia. pastu tak campur ngan dia very the clingy and suka tuduh aku buat benda bukan2. betambah2 la perasaan aku nak berenti keje. plus aku somewhat gives the assurance that the year after, i will get myself back to kl.

in early 2007, my boss said that it wouldnt be fair for the rest of the team that joins earlier than me but still stuck in north whereas i get to go. plus my review was very good. i somewhat take it as a good sign for my career in shell.

keje la macam biasa. tapi ex aku nye kesabaran dan keracauan makin meluap2 sampai membuatkan aku terpaksa pikir nak berenti lagi skali. nak nak in the middle of the year my boss got promoted to china and there goes my movement. so takde sapa nak support aku nye movement coz aku akan dapat boss baru. perasaan nak berenti keje meluap2 lagi masa tu sbb tau yang chances nak balik kl mmg semakin tipis.

Ganti boss baru. hayo. macam ulang sejarah. yang baru ni punya perangai sebijik macam ex boss aku kat kl. ko jadi la no 1 dlm apa barang pun tapi kalau ko tak reti nak kipas dia buat bontot dia jadi lebih besar dari tempayan, ko adalah average staff sjork.

i have to put up with him coz i was too close for my promotion. i just need to get my manager title and then its easier for me to place myself outside there. in the mean time, aku cari gak la keje. tapi tak de la putting any hope of getting sbb kalau cabut awal, rugi la penyeksaan yg aku endure slama ni without achieving anything.

as expected, bila my first review with my current boss ni, aku was rated above average which was to me so unfairly assessed. Aku keje macam nak gila surpassing all my KPIs ko cakap aku above average je? Lagi sakit hati bila aku tanya kenapa, ko kasi aku jawaban macam hanjing? tak show team work coz aku tak mau makan japanese food ngan team masa lunch? APAKAH!

but i got my promotion anyway. nasib baik boss aku ni jenis cik bab dan ting tong so dia telah dibelakangi system yang membuatkan aku bernasib baik disitu. hmm..aku tak kira aku nak cerita gak betapa cik bab nye boss aku ni. mari amik contoh colleague aku sorg ni..cian dia. dah keje 2 tahun sampai ari ni pun tak dapat confirmation letter lagi. ha! tak ke cik bab tahap dewi durga tu? uols pikir la sendiri katanya.

jadi aku pun bekerja dengan muka ketat sepanjang tahun lepas. dengan harapan ada la company nak kutip aku keje. things gets easier bila aku clash ngan ex aku somewhere in may. so my reason of leaving become slightly less emotionally driven. In dec, i got an offer from another MNC tapi masa tu aku tak tau nak cabut ke tak. Sbb ketamakan sudah wujud tatkala itu. ye la.. dah end year sah sah la bonus dah nak dekat. kalau aku resign in dec. melepas la bonus.

plus the offer given to me tu takde dateline. dia cakap he is in no hurry, the job will still be there for me in 2009. tapi...nan ado! kenapa? salah aku gak la.. satu sbb tamak. dua sbb aku should have anticipated that most company will freeze up employment due to the economic downturn this year.

when i called up the hiring manager again early this year, he said that the job has been frozen till said date. Hold on to what u got for what it is worth he said. The problem is i dont know whether i can hold that long. Tapi aku gigih gak la nak berenti keje tahun ni.

aku rasa saving aku cukup kot nak sara aku masa menganggur. and aku pun tak le fully menganggur coz i have other means to get money. plus aku bleh sambung master. so all in all i think i wouldnt loose that much. not until last friday...

last friday, me called up my mom. my mom has this habit of calling me for two secs and suruh aku call balik. itu maksudnye dia nak cakap lama2. hayo. dia pun cakap kat i yg dia nak retire early. i was a bit hesitant sbb itu bermaksud aku akan jadi 100% penanggung family aku nanti. bukan tak mampu cuma kalau aku berenti keje bebetul..aku mmg tak mampu..hahahaha.

when we discuss things further today, i cant force her to work anymore. if what she wants makes her happy, then i'm gonna be supportive of what she wants. thats the least that i could do as a son.

so dilemma aku berterusan lagi... nak berenti keje boleh..tapi aku tak leh nak sara family aku fully.. boleh tu boleh.. tapi aku takde 100% assurance that i can provide full commitment knowing the fact that i dont have anything firm to hold on to myself. plus, by april...gaji naik lagi...matila, aku asyik kene ikat kaki ngan gaji je...camner ni uols..

bak kata karen and rose, ur salary is just gonna keep on increasing. if u dont make a move now and take a pay cut. you wont move anymore. not when it would be too expensive for other people to pay you.. somehow benda tu buat aku bepikir panjang jgk....

Aku kini ditebuk...

2009-01-12T04:48:00.001-08:00

Selamat Tahun Baru~

Entry pertama untuk tahun ini sungguh sedih. Today, 12th Jan 2009, tapak tangan ku sudah tidak cantik lagi. kenapa? lihatlah kepada gambar ini...

if u look closely, i got three stitches on my palm, not nicely done though

korang nampak tak apa kat tangan aku tu? itu adalah jahitan doktor klinik panel aku yg lahanat!! sungguh bodoh doctor tu jait tangan aku guna tools yang tak sterile dan helper yang bodoh.. aku rasa macam nak buat sendri je!

Marilah kita rewind sket cerita macam mana incident ini terjadi...

Pada petang tadi.. i sangat la lapa.. satu ari tak makan ooo.. i dok ngadap laptop buat keje. Walaupun i bekerja from home tapi sangat malas nak gi dapur masak utk makan.. so i hidup on milo in pack je la.

i should have stabbed it horizontally, at least it would help extending my career line! jeez

Lepas dah tak larat nak menahan lapa..i pun godek2 la fridge i... ingat nak goreng nuggets, burger and masak megi. I kuarkan semua benda2lah nih.. heat up my pan and on the other stove i heat up deep fry pot nak goreng naget.

Sambil2 tunggu minyak panas. i pun amik la paring knife i nak separatekan burger tu..cocok in between two patties tu... pastu zapp! tertusuk tangan i sendri! I plak cocok kuat2 plak sbb patty tu kan keras..tak sangka la it went through so easily.

Since it was too fast, i tak rasa sakit trus. i cabut je pisau tu, i tgk tgn i dah lohong katanya! mrasa la trus nak pitam. trus terjelopok atas lantai sat. pastu i bangun balik sbb lantai tu sejuk dan x comfy. i menghuyung hayang kan diri ke sofa and baring kat sana sat. memusing dunia ni ye!

inilah rupa tangan yg dah dibalut dengan keadaan langsung tak sterile. bodo nye clinic!

After a while tu, i bangun balik..sambung masak sat. sbb i sgt lapa. tangan i tu, i tutup ngan tissue je..tekan kasi bleeding stop. at that time, i was too hungry to think about my wound. yes! i mmg set priority uol. lepas masak2.. i taruk plaster kat tapak tangan supaya senang nak makan.

Pastu i text sabrina cakap i stabbed my own hand. Trus diorg (yumar n sab) call tanya ok ke tak.. yumar suruh gi clinic cepat2. tapi i gegeh nak makan dulu.. pastu i call my mum tanya samada necessary ke clinic ke tak. my mum said kene gi amik ATT shots and probably kene few stitches.

Jadi i pun drive la ngan sebelah tangan ke nearest panel clinic company i. Sampai sana, masuk jumpa doc, dia pun kata kene jait. I pun ok la.. first dia suruh helper dia (i tak refer as nurse ye sbb diorg ni bukan qualified nurses pun) cuci luka i. Ayo cuci luka macam lap lantai. Ko dok ngulang guna gauze yg sama jadi cuci apa nya? Sakit ati aku tgk pompuan tu buat keje.. nak je aku meracau..tapi pikir nanti doc tu buat ganas2 so..i senyap ja.

Pastu gi la nak buat jaitan tu. Helper tu trus tebar newspaper lama suruh i taruk tangan atas bendatu.. uols...nak buat stitching i atas newspaper buruk! bley? BOLEH uols! mmg diorg jait tangan aku atas suratkaba lama! aku nak complaint kat shell pasni! apa punya panel clinic?

Masa dia nak buat suture tu lagi satu hal, dah la ko taruk semua apparatus tu atas paper tu kan, pastu ko nak jait aku xtaruk local anesthesia. KO INGAT AKU NI SUPERMAN BADAN KEBAL? lepas aku buat2 meraung baru la nak kasi local. pastu jait pun tak cantik. aku jait lagi cantik. i SENTAP kesimpulannye!

Dah abis semua dia ckp kene datang stiap ari nak buat dressing, i trus cakap - its okay, i can do it on my own. i came from a medical background family. just equip me with the tools and i'll do it myself. pastu i blah.

then i called up my mom. my mom marah i sebab tak suruh doc to stop masa dia nak start buat suture tu. she said, i can even sue them for malpractice. tgk la, kalau tangan aku ni kene infection mmg aku saman!..

/me signing off dengan perasaan marah!

membuang sesawang

2009-01-02T02:30:00.000-08:00

hi semua.. i nak buang sawang sket2 sbb dah seminggu tak update blog.. just came back from singapore. so nanti i akan update cerita kat sini ek.. till then.. TTFN~

Meracau lagi -MR CURIOSITY

2008-12-16T09:08:00.000-08:00

Hi there.. seperti biasa, on and off aku akan menghidap penyakit jiwa dan kali ni agak sakit jugak la.. bulan ni sungguh keji... a lot of things did not go my way and i'm tired of pulling positive attitude every single time. I've made up my mind, next year will be a new beginning for me. I'm moving forward with a new life. I foresee that things might be hard but i'm certain that i can make it. If i can do it now, i can still do it tomorrow... Plus, what is the worse thing that can happen? I bunuh diri ja pun.. so takde la serious mana sangat.

Hey Mr. Curiosity

Is it true what they've been saying about you
Are you killing me?
You took care of the cat already
And for those who think it's heavy
Is it the truth
Or is it only gossip
Call it mystery or anything
Just as long as you'd call me
I sent the message on did you get it when I left it
See this catastrophic event
It wasn't meant to mean no harm
But to think there's nothing wrong is a problem

I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
Love is a mystery
Mr. Curious...

Come back to me
Mr. waiting ever patient can't you see
That I'm the same the way you left me
In a hurry to spell check me
And I'm underlined already in envy green
And pencil red
And I've forgotten what you've said
Will you stop working for the dead and return
Mr. curious well I need some inspiration
It's my birthday and I cannot find no cause for celebration
The scenario is grave but I'll be braver when you save me
From this situation laden with hearsay

I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
And love is a mystery
Mr. Curiosity
Be Mr. please
Do come and find me, oh
Find, find me, find me

I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
Trying not to ask why
Cause love is a mystery
Mr. curiosity
Be Mr. please
Do come and find me

Love is blinding when the timing's never right
Oh who am I to beg for difference
Finding love in just an instant
Well I dont mind, at least I've tried
And I tried, I tried...

Rindu Bayangan

2008-12-08T21:14:00.000-08:00

Ayo. I langsung tak tau yang org ni taruk video clip dia dlm You tube tau. so i nak bantu la create visibility utk dia. Manala tau bleh jadi the next Marie Digby kan? Klau dapat, i nak claim royalty for making you famous! Are you enjoy? (kata Ella)

Rombongan kanak2 istimewa part 2

2008-12-04T03:34:00.000-08:00

....................................................................................................Yuhuuu~ cikgu dah kembali sekali lagi. cikgu tak sangka ramai kanak2 diluar sana yang seronok tengok kekanak riang yang cikgu lampirkan beberapa hari sudah.

Bukan senang nak tengok anak2 murid beketempiaran seperti kene ligan babi hutan itu. cikgu juga mendapat respon positif daripada khalayak ramai berkenaan tema pemakaian anak sekolah tersebut. Ya, di sekolah cikgu, memang kami mementingkan adat pemakaian kerana ia

nya melambangkan sahsiah pelajar dan sekolah itu sendiri.

Wawasan dan visi sekolah adalah melahirkan anak2 istimewa yang beketerampilan dan juga berwawasan! Tak perchaya? cikgu sertakan lagi beberapa keping gambar untuk tatapan anda semua ya!

Rombongan sekolah kanak2 istimewa ke sungai part 1

2008-12-02T04:17:00.000-08:00

Adik2 semua, di beberapa minggu yang lepas, cikgu telah membawak sekumpulan kanak2 istimewa ke sungai untuk berkelah. Mereka semua sungguh gembira apabila tiba di sana. Kesemuanya begitu ceria dan berketempiaran seolah2 dunia mahu kiamat keesokannya. Saksikan la beberapa gambaran kanak2 istimewa ini dan selamilah kegembiraan mereka...

inilah aksi2 kanak2 istimewa menunjukan terima kasih mereka kepada cikgu

Nanti cikgu taruk lagi gamba2 lain ye... jangan ponteng sekolah~ sekolah itu bagus.

So u think u can pose?

2008-12-01T09:25:00.000-08:00

Sebelum i post gamba2 yg related kepada artifak dibawah.. u guys ketawa la beguling2 dulu tgk video nih.. nasa jgn tarik rambut i~~

Bangkok Love Story - Story To Tell

2008-11-30T07:55:00.000-08:00

I have said so much about this movie over and over (not to mention literally making people watching it no matter what) to many people, so this time i will give a glimpse of what the story is all about.

Bangkok love story tells you about Mhek, an assassin who is assigned to kidnap a police informant named It, but Mhek has a change of heart when he was ordered to kill It. In a gunbattle with his employers, Mhek got wounded.

The two of them managed to escape and at Mhek's place, It tends to Mhek's wound and started taking care of Mhek from that day onwards. It started more like paying back at Mhek's gesture for not killing him but love comes touching both of their hearts over time.

Chaiwat Tongsang as It (Brick)

You can feel the love building up and grows everyday from the way they react and communicate through their body language. It is also quite obvious that It was the one acting like the submissive type that he tends to get emotional and apologetic towards Mhek's reactions or orders.

Mhek on the other hand had a lot in his plate to juggle with. He can't deny his feeling telling him that he cares for It but he tries to fight it. Perhaps it got to do with his past experience when his brother (very cute, i think he should play the lead instead) was raped by their step father.

Making things worse, the step dad is HIV positive. Transmitting down the disease to Mhok (Mhek's cute brother) and their mother. Mhek became an assassin to save enough money to take his mother and brother away from Bangkok to some mountain where they can live as a family again without disturbance from their past.

Rattaballung Toesawat as Mhek (Cloud)

However thing does not go easy on their family as when Mhek was away, Mhok has to find way to keep the family survive. Mhok is always physically bullied and received resentment from people around him for being HIV carrier. The torture that he has to deal everyday breaks his mom's heart even more (of course broke my heart even-so).

During the time Mhek was fighting and glooming over his forbidden love towards It and also the fact that his ex-employer is on the look for him, he was unable to meet Mhok, a secret regular meeting he always have, to give Mhok money for the family. This had made Mhok looking for alternative to keep themselves live.

Mhok decided to sell himself. He then became a male prostitute. Each customer that he had slept with, he will leave a note thanking them for the money given and leave half of the portion back to the owner for his future HIV meds. Thoughtful but not quite responsible.

Meanwhile, It got chased out from Mhek's place and went back to his house. Back to his wife. But things weren't the same. It craves for Mhek more and more and he can't get it out of his system. It spends his days pining over Mhek, and tracks down Mhek's brother and their mother since Mhek is nowhere to be found.

What breaks my heart even more was that they always appear at the same place at the same time but always at the wrong directions. It frustrates me to see that they are within reach but not reachable.

Unfortunate event keeps on pouring to Mhek's family when their mom committed suicide after finding out Mhek was in love with a guy and Mhok sells himself for money to support the family. Suicide was just not enough for their half-dead mom; while bringing the body outside of their house, the mom was shot by unknown man.

This was the turning point for Mhek. He was outraged by the incident. He went to his ex-boss place and started to eliminate every single one there. It knows about Mhek's intention after Mhok had told him about it.

Poor It who wishes to stop Mhek but wasn't so lucky. When It got there, everyone was dead except for the big boss wife who let loose few random shots towards him. Bullets hit glass and pieces of it went into It's eyes.

Weeradit Srimalai as Mhok (Fog)

Mhek was on his way to meet Mhok at train station. They were supposed to go the mountains and start a new life. Unfortunately, the cops came with such right timing and apprehended him and sent him to prison. Mhek was devastated. All of his hopes were torn into pieces. Everything was practically washed away right there in front of his eyes.

Years pass by. Mhok dies. He hanged himself at a hospice in northern Thailand. It visits Mhek in prison and reveals that he was left blind in the final gunbattle with Mhek's bosses. Eventually after so many years, Mhek is released from prison, and It patiently waited for him.

But before the two men can leave to start their life together, Mhek is gunned down by an assassin. Before Mhek was dead, both of them were discussing to live abroad and Mhek promising It to be his eyes for the rest of his life.

It eventually gets his sight back- now living abroad, and the first thing he does is to look at his mobile phone, which has a video of Mhek telling how much he actually loves It - till the moment death tears them apart.........

Fuhh! I'm not so much of a story teller but that is the best i can come out with. GO and watch it yourself and i'm telling you that it is well worth every minute watching it. In my next installment, i will try to write on reflections that i had from this movie. It would be too long to write it in this post already.

Am i depressed?

2008-11-23T09:32:00.001-08:00

Deviating from my previous posting, this had somehow strikes me to write in my blog instantly... should i become a person that i have not, please....help me find myself out...

Have to give credit to sasa for posting similar topic in her blog. I've taken the depression screening test and guess what? clinically, i am depress! OMG, i dont want to be the next carolline...here is what the test results said:

Results and recommendations

Your screening results indicate a high likelihood that you are suffering from severe depression. --> SEVERE? you must be joking me!! i dont feel like i'm severely depressed whatsover! tipu sangat!

Your answers also show you might be at risk for harming yourself. --> i would rather harm other people first. that shows that i'm not severely depressed rite?

You are advised to see your doctor or a mental health professional immediately for a complete evaluation - or dial "911" - or call 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). - or go immediately to the nearest hospital Emergency Room for an evaluation. --> so how? nak tepon mak i la.. she would know who to refer to.. dont think if i go to the ER saying that i need help on managing my depression and they will say "welcome! we're here to help" orang patah kaki accident pun kene tunggu berjam..ni kan aku yg sihat physically...haih...

This screening is not a substitute for a complete clinical evaluation.

The good news is clinical depression is a very treatable illness. Almost everyone who receives appropriate treatment can soon feel better. --> treatable? i've seen people (my own colleagues) went bonkers and having to live on lifetime medication... how can that be treatable? u tell me!

2008-11-23T04:46:00.000-08:00

Dear Readers,

Due to the urgency of my overwhelming feelings towards my recent experience watching this awesome movie- Bangkok Love Story, i wish to inform that i shall be writing about it instead of continuing my normal emotional diarrhea/tantrum about things that had happened in my daily life.

For those who are familiar with my critical-centric cum cynical and sarcastic style of writing, i pledge to keep an objective view of my watching experience for this one. However, do look out on the emotional perspective of my review as i will ensure the essence of if to be assimilated and emulsified together.

I strongly hope that this shall benefit even perhaps inspires people out there to dig into the bigger picture of the story-line rather than just seeing it from skin deep. Please wait for my next post and while waiting, enjoy the trailer that i have attached together with this letter.

I thank you for your patient and passion in advance.

Warm regards
ash

wahahahhahaha... berhasil jgk la aku gi course persuasive writing skill aritu.. ada hasil ka? la la la la la

tak abis2 lagi ke nangis tu?

2008-11-18T06:47:00.000-08:00

recap: di episod lepas, i telah berhenti dikala mana i dan jez begitu terkejut dengan jawaban aritha yang begitu unexpected ituew. di episode ni merupakan episode akhir yg i akan wrap up supaya i bley start meracau pasal benda2 lain yg lebih segar sperti, i telah dipechlob oleh colleague i to my girlfriend, another pechlob scene oleh colleague yg sama kepada my close colleague friends, trip i ke bangkok and also recent picnic di tempat air terjun.. merasa banyak benda nak cerita tapi tak tertulis2 sampai skang kan??

selepas i bertahyat akhir ituew i mendapat another text from jez yg berbunyi berikut:
jez: hahaha. kan? aku expect zalina macam tu . but aritha tu mmg aku terkejut i uol.

I rasa2 jez pun terjelepuk di kaki syurga jugak apabila dia dpt message tu mcm i. Just for the sake of trying to understand her position, i pun reply la macam ni and disusuli jez yg somewhat agreed with my assumption,

me: mungkin penangan menjadi bini org kot uols.

jez: hehehe. mungkin jugak. aku tgh tunggu jawaban kak siana ni

bila jez kata dia tunggu fidbek siana(bukan nama sebenar), i secara seraya terfikir yang pompuan ni nak kumpul material utk buat blog ke? dah ala2 posse jadi micheal melodi ni mesti la ada sesuatu kan? sesuatu~ so i pun tanya la dia betul ke? rupanya mmg ada udang disebalik batu...

jez: takde la uols.. i baru pas diskusi nga hadi .. apparently he's on the same page as aritha and zalina.. tapi macam best gak wat survey pastu update blog kan

katanya~! adakah ini bermaksud hadi adalah sesuatu? ops.

me: ayo..hati lembut rupanya laki u. ada bakat...huhu.. yes uols. material yg bagus utk blog. blh brangan satc vs lipstic jungle katanya.

conversation ended there for a while.. i ingat tu kira closure dah la.. tapi tup tup bergetar lagi ciknek i untuk ke sekian kalinya.. amik ko, kali ni mmg sms yg panjang belebar sampai i kene tunggu sampai ke traffic light baru boleh baca bebetul ye! mrasa la jez tulis kat i macam ni:

jez: mrasa jawaban kak siana leh buat cerpen katanya. izzu: for me, the guy sanggup put away his ego and pride hanya untuk dapatkan his gf back. maknanya dia btul2 nak kan gf dia balik sepenuh hati. bukan senang a guy nak nangis. aku pun tak nangis masa breakup sbb aku rasa itu mmg patut. tapi kalau that guy apa benda pun nak nangis, tinggalkan je sbb buat malu je. but u must be convinced with his action. ask him to show u yg dia betul2 nak kat ko. give him a little test, either with words or actions. then u can judge him, whether he really meant it or not.

jez: ayat favorite aku dari jawapan izu - tapi kalau data guy apa benda pun nak nangis, tingggalkan je. buat malu je.

now, we have something to discuss here. apakah kata izu itu valid dan patut dipersetujui? adakah jikalau lelaki tu menangis tanda mengetepikan egonya demi menunjukkan bahawa dia benar2 tulus dan ikhlas dan sesal akan segala perbuatannya?

but izu made a good point by saying that the girl must be convinced enough with his action. but dunia skang ni... semua org pun boleh jadi primadona kan? stakat emmy award for lead actor or actress tu celah puki ja uols...

tapi kalau semanjang benda ko nak nangis.. i rasa mmg patut u baling pintu je kat muka org tu..mcm izzu kata..buat malu je

anyhow, being sarcastic as always juga sebab i nak cucuk lagi supaya lebih heated discussion kami berdua, i balas with something yang i rasa kalau izzu baca i tulis ni dia akan meracau2 tanpa berhenti kat i nanti... kenapa? sbb i tulis balik camni kat jez;

me: hmm..that would explain why people yang pikir guna emosi ended up jadi orang yang paling miserable bila difficult situation hit them. ko stuju?

malangnya, i gagal dapat respond panjang daripada jez. maybe dia dah sedar dia bazir banyak sgt duit discussing about things yang tak kene mengena ngan idup dia kot.. sebagai penutup dia membalas balik sms i tanpa kata bye or putting a closure to our discussion...

jez: yes. agreed. nangis biar sorang2 uols. tak perlu semua org tau

Yup, nangis biar sorang2..tapi sometimes its good to cry in front of others.. to be seen fragile is not always a bad thing......

-tammat-

Shampoo bagi yang bertudung

2008-11-10T08:24:00.000-08:00

I tak tahan gelak tgk video clip ni.. mati pecah perut tgk.. uols tak pecaya uols tgk sendiri!

video ini courtesy website kikiki... abisla i mengundang kontroversi ngan opismate i pasni.

Land of Smiles

2008-11-04T03:19:00.000-08:00

Sawadikap~ Welcome to the land of smiles =D

Sebelum i meracau2 menaruk gamba2 yg banyak. I nak taruk dulu gamba2 siasatan yg diambil ketika berada di Bangkok itew. Nantikan gamba2 lain yg bakal tiba~

p/s: i akan post gamba2 yg i tak post kat Fbook je kat sini.. tak larat la aku nak upload sampai beratus2 gamba kan?

Caption taruk sendrik.. ops..

Kap kun kap~

Mari Dengar Cerita Budak2 Zaman Sekarang

2008-10-28T04:35:00.000-07:00

Sempena bulan syawal yang mulia iniew... i posse2 nak muhasabah diri sebelum taruk gamba2 kat bangkok..katanya~

Song/Singer: Lagu Budak2 Zaman Sekarang/5forty2

Mari dengar cerita budak-budak zaman sekarang 2x
Ada pakai jubah ada yang separuh terlanjang
Ada macam-macam kulit putih tukar hitam
Ikut suka hati apa peduli halal haram

Masa kecik2 cita2 jadik doctor
Bila besar jadik lupa jadik player jadik gangster
Apa kejadahnya ayah kelu tak berkata mak garu kepala
Masa depan huru hara

Orang bercinta dia pon gatal nak ikut
Bila maruah dah tergadai baru dada rasa semput
Ini kisah anak dara belum yang lagi pemuda(macam2 ada)
Sampai tak tau camne nak mula

Sekolah belum habis dah lagak macam dewasa
Islam hanya pada nama semua dia nak cuba
Boleh main cuba2,boleh main raba2
Main sama2,bila kena sama rasa

Tepuk dada tanya selera,tanya iman,tanya diri
Tanya kaki sapa bagi sampai kita boleh diri?
Aku Cuma cerita apa yang aku nampak
Terpulanglah kat korang nak terima ke tak

Budak zaman sekarang perangai pelik
Orang kata buruk dia pandang semua cantik
Tak serik,mane pergi rasa segan

Kalau kata orang kurang-kurang pon kat Tuhan
Kuat manusia bergantung pada ilmu setakat tunjuk otai
Takde orang respek kat lu memang begitu
Dunia untuk orang bijak pandai2 hidup kalau taknak kene pijak

Cuba2 usha tengok2 sekeliling bukan tengok dinding tapi minah senget mata juling(juling?)
Dia bukan buta cumabuat2 tak nampak dia rasa seronok jadik budak rosak akhlak(iskh3)
Harga diri murah jual badan kat lelaki macam balak dia konpem ambik die buat bini
Sedarlah diri sedarlah dari mimpi2,apa hari2 ko mmg gelap takde pagi?

Konon pakai seksi sebab laki suka tengok,kalau lawa takpe
Cuma lawa sikit dari MOMOK(uwek)
Pusingkan pandangan tengok pulak benda baru,budak jadik player walau belum tumbuh bulu(bulu?)apa benda tu?
Khatan pon belum kering lagi dah pandai pulak citer main sana main sini

Tukar pompuan hari2 bukan ke kau tu Muslim?
Nabi tak ajar kita tukar pompuan macam musim macam main game
Boleh buat sesuka hati cuba fikir balik kemana kite lepas mati

Tak payah kerek2 kita semua bukan hebat ingat atas sana ada kuasa lagi kuat

Jom tengok2 budak2 dekat sini perangai pelik diorang tambah sikit dengan perangai gedik
Dengan jersi besar rantai pulak nak cecah lantai topi kasi senget pastu carut tunjuk otai
Pakai seluar besar pandang badan macam lidi tepi angkat sikit tayang bulu kaki tayang itu ini

Tunjuk semua perangai buruk memang teruk bila orang mula lagak beruk
Buat apa sebok2 dengan trend masa kini sanggup pakai mahal
Walau gadai itu ini berhabis duit Cuma sebab nak perhatian
Semua atas sebab nak diri diperhatikan

Inilah hakikat kita pentingkan luaran anugerah Tuhan lebih sekadar ucapan