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tuan2 dan puan2,

sesungguhnya blog ini akan bersawang buat sementara waktu karena saya akan ke Phuket dari 24-28 july dan langsung bertolak ke Penang sehingga hujung bulan. sehubungan dengan itu, adalah menjadi sedikit kesukaran untuk saya mengemaskini blog ini mahupun dihubungi kecuali melalui pesanan ringkas karena pastinya caj panggilan bukanlah murah apatah lagi berpatutan. oleh sebab itu, kemunchulan semula saya disini atau dimana2 sepastinya sehingga wujud semula penulisan diblog ini ataupun tatkala saya menghubungi tuan2 dan puan2 sekalian kembali.

sekian terima kasih

ash

..sronoknye tulis bahasa melayu..bahasa melambangkan bangsa..wah~

Meracau time

Sometimes i do feel exactly like what the lyric said.. as if it was written by me... matila matila...

Babyface - The Loneliness

[Verse 1]
Im sitting here 
Thinking bout
How im gon-na do without 
You around in my life and how am I
I gon' get by 
I ain't got no days 
Just lonely nights 
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time 
I think im gonna lose my mind

[Chorus]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again

[Verse 2]
I miss your face 
I miss your kiss 
I even miss the arguments 
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side 
I'm dying here its clear to see 
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me 
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life

[Chorus (repeat till end)]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

Weekend Getaway - Penang

I nak tiru izzu.. upload gamba dulu baru cerita..huhu

7 interesting/wierd things about me

1. I am a shy guy

There is a reason why i put it at no 1. coz most people would rather die to believe the fact that i'm a freaking shy person. Betul. Perchayalah bahawa aku ni sgt la pemalu orang nye. i would not talk to people that i dont know or not comfortable with. if i'm in a big crowd, i would never want to be the centre of attraction neither would i go to people and introduce myself. i'm good sitting at one corner by myself. im good.

Kalau org yg baru kenal pun aku takkan overly friendly. Tak reti nak cakap pasal apa. Tapi bila dah kenal betul and i can find few things yg makes us clicked baru la aku betul2 peramah.

2. Sleep, eat and me at ease..

We know that our body actually talks to us but most of the time but we tend to ignore the signs. Let me tell you how my body talks. Bila aku tak cukup makan, tido ( 8 jam at least) or pressured, badan aku akan cepat sweat and shiver. Pastu bibir jadi dry nak mampus. Nafas jadi semput and cepat btul rasa annoyed, irritated and angry for the silliest mistake/act people can make.

Kalau korg tak tau macam mana rasanya atau teringin nak rasa. cubalah try meth and feel the after effect of it. then u would understand my situation when it happens.

Of course some people might experience the same symptoms but i have it everytime either one or all of those were not fully taken care of. Bulan posa adalah paling mencabar since aku menggigil bukan sbb aku lapa tapi sbb tahan nak maki dan penerajang org.


3. September Suey

September adalah bulan suey bagi aku. This is the month that my dad, brother and grandma died. Macam janjang arithmetic, they also died in order, one year after another. Tragic that it makes me become a septemphobic (mrasa create phobia sendri katanya).

Each time september approaches, i will always prep myself for another death note to be sent to me. And also run through my checklist on who should be dead this year and year after accordingly.

4. I'm dyslexic  

Yes. Tom Cruise and i do have something in common. Both of us have dyslexia. Tapi aku tak seteruk Tom la.. i can still read. I'm having a minor dyslexic syndrome for which i cant tell right from left, i jumble numbers when put in a strings, i have difficulties memorizing figures and stuffs which gives me disadvantages and also advantages.

The biggest minus point for me is that i needed all those skills which i continuously fumble around, in order to do my daily job. And because of that i have to be extra careful in everything, be very meticulous so that i wont make any mistakes. It slows down my work and i hate it. Imagine running long list of numbers using calculator until i can get myself a constant final number. how frustrating is that?

No wonder aku tak pernah cukup masa buat math exam masa study dulu. Cis.

5. Cepat terasa

Ni pun macam item no 1 gak. Banyak org takkan pecaya sbb semua org pun ingat aku jenis tak kisah. Tapi sebetulnye aku ni sangat la kisah and cepat terasa sampai rasa mcm a little bit paranoid gak.

Aku bleh terasa up to the extend yg aku sendri pun kengkadang pikir ngarut. Contohnye bila kengkawan aku bleh sembang sesama sendri dlm bilik walhal aku kat luar sorg2 tgk tv atau baring. Inside my head, dok pusing2 sampai ati tak ajak aku gosip2 skali ngan korang. Gile kan? ahahah

Kengkadang bila aku tgk some of my friend yg lebih comfortable opening up to another friend of mine but not to me pun i terasa. Bley? Tapi memandangkan tuhan kasi i kebolehan utk rationalize benda sampai tahap menakutkan, sedikit sebanyak dapat memujuk hati yg cepat terasa ini.

6. Underwear fetish

Saya sangat suka underwear~~~ suka suka suka sangat! My fetish for underwear ni starts when i went to Bangkok last year. Kat flea market and shopping complex diorg banyak jual underwear yg cantik2, provocative, sexy, cute dan sebagainya.

Since then, keje aku adalah membeli underwear macam2 bentuk. g-string ka, tanga ke, superlow hipster ke etc. Kalau takde kat mesia, i beli je online. wah~ bazir duit beli benda yg org tak leh nampak pun....huhu

nasib baik ada myspace, bleh posse2 tayang underwear i.. tak gitu apau? ops.


7. At verge of death - twice

Kalau jadi kali ke tiga tapi aku tak insaf jugak..aku tak tau la...

Yes, i had almost seen the angel of death twice but god spares me my life still. I survived falling from a waterfall about 3 stories high, landing on considerably huge rocks and still lives. This happened long time ago back then when i was in primary school. Darjah 6 tak silap aku.

The second time was when my car spun like speedy merry-go-round on a highway due to aquaplaning effect. The car crashed onto the divider and jammed on the fast lane. i was stunned for quite a while (plus also trying to find my laptop bag and umbrella, not wanting to leave the car being wet under the rain). Soon after i left the car (of course with umbrella on and my laptop with me) 5 cars crash onto my car and 3 of them was completely damaged- total lost.

Who say miracle never happen?


Dengan itu saya meng TAG mereka2 yg berikut:
1. Hafizal
2. Irwan
3. Izwan
4. Izzu
5. Pisah
6. Syai
7. Shasha

Tq.

Estelle - American Boy

I sangat suka pompuan ini~ 

you'll be my american boy~

Separated - Usher

If love was a bird then we wouldn't have wings
If love was the sky we'd be blue
If love was a choir, U and I could never sing
'cause love isn't for me and U

If love was an Oscar, U and I could never win
'cause we could never act out our parts
If love is the bible, then we are lost in sin
Because it's not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way,
and I'll go mine
Live ur life
And I'll live mine

Baby, U'll do well
And I'll be fine
'cause we're better of separated...

If love was a fire then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport, we're not on the same team
U and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean, baby, we are just a stream
'cause love isn't for me and U

So why don't you go your way,
and I'll go mine
Live ur life
And I'll live mine

Baby, U'll do well
And I'll be fine
'cause we're better of separated...

Girl, I know we had some good times
Sept for now, gotta say goodbye
Girl U know I love U

I can't deny
Can't say we didn't try to make it work for U and I
I know it hurts so much
But it's best for us

Somewhere along thiswide new moon, we lost the trust
So I walk away, so U don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't U go

So why don't you go your way,
and I'll go mine
Live ur life
And I'll live mine

Baby, U'll do well
And I'll be fine
'cause we're better of 

so much better of...

separated...

made of honor

Jez, i will post about topic that u've tagged me with after this one. Experience aku pasal 

this incident lebih intriguing utk di share. :)

Harini lepas aku check out from Gurney Hotel, aku pun went out for lunch kat chilis with my other 2 colleagues. Lepas borak lama2, kitorg masuk dlm gurney plaza tu wondering around sampai la one of my colleague ni ajak tgk wayang cite made of honor. 

So to kill of some time yang ada, kitorang pun ok je la with that plan. Lagipun aku penah tgk thriller dia and it looks fun to watch. Infact, mmg agak entertaining la. I would suggest for you to watch it esp for those who can understand underlying comedy act that the characters inside it were playing about. 

Dua org opismate ni ngan aku mmg close la jgk. We basically share almost everything except for the part of me with my alternate lifestyle je la. Walaupun memula cerita tu agak sedikit boring (maybe because aku agak mengantuk sbb tak cukup tido 8 jam selepas hangout with Feroz kat Bagan ting-tong2 sampai 5 pagi) but the story started to get more and more interesting and funnier sampaila abis cerita tuh.

I'm not gonna make a review about the movie but what i wanted to share is the experience that i had while watching the movie itself. Tak tau nak cakap samada ini adalah embarrassing moments or weird occasion yang tak pernah aku lalui.

Like i said earlier, cerita ni ada straight forward jokes but at the same time banyak jokes yg tersirat. So, one must at least have a certain level of awareness of the subject in order for them to understand it. Which unfortunately, the whole crowd except for me and my friends, have no complete idea on what the heck was it all about.

Sekali sekala tu blh la ko dengar diorg ketawa bila part2 straight jokes ni kan..though diorg takde la ketawa terbahak2 ke apa...kitorg pun ketawa la jgk cuma aku punya ketawa sedikit kuat la (for those who knows me well enough, you can imagine how i laugh when i watch horror of comedy movies) ...until this one point kuar la satu scene about one of this bridesmate yg gemuk cuba untuk kuruskan badan dia from size 12 to 8 in two weeks just for the wedding sake. 

She was so into the slimming routine that she didn't eat anything other than her slimming drink that she carries everywhere. Masa kat shower party nih, Patric Dampsey tegur la dia for not eating and she should at least eat some coz it is unhealthy. Pompuan ni plak very confident that she would be fine and said that she is fine but suddenly she paused and had this almost nak pitam condition and then snapped back to life. 

Hillary : You can get to size 8 in two weeks! Look at me, i did it!

Aku pun punya la ketawa macam nak mati bila tgk dia jadi macam tu. And guess what? I am the only one laughing inside the cinema! Ya ampun! masa tu sangat la malu sbb aku sorg je yg gelak. aku tgk kawan2 kat seblah aku ni pun ketawa tapi diorg cekup mulut sebleh tidak. So i knew that it was funny and i did laugh for the right scene. 

Masa tu rasa a bit paranoid la, ko rasa macam org gila dlm tu ye. aku pun cakap kat kawan aku "kita ni tengok movie ngan org asli ke? asal diorg tak ketawa pun ek?" kawan aku ketawa je la.

I let it go and buat macam biasa je la sampai la ke satu scene ni lagi bila tarot card reader yg dijemput utk entertain the guess happened to be a sex toy salesgirl. Dia pun buat la promosi and explanation about all the sex toys that she carries with her. 

Ada la potong sket2 bab2 nak tunjuk dildo bagai so aku tak heran la kalau org2 dalam pawagam ni tak leh nak catch up bila kami betiga giggle tak abis ( tak berani nak ketawa kuat2 dah masa tu) but bila satu part ni bila pompuan tu bawak kuar glow in the dark anal/vagina beads  tuh, aku mmg dah tak tahan nak gelak.

Anal/Vagina Beads for you Sir/Madam?

Nak nak bila nenek kepada bride tu attracted to it and dia punya innocent ingatkan benda tu necklace then dia pakai kat leher, aku ngan kwn2 aku ni mmg xleh tahan dah. Pecah perut la kitorg ketawa. Begema satu cinema tu sbb kitorg betiga je gelak bley?

Mmg masa tu aku rasa sangat horror. As if i'm in a community full of weird and mysterious people. Even coma patients could at least show an emotion to that scene. But these people? GOD!

Lagi best, siap ada 2-3 org pompuan kat blakang kitorg boleh cakap sama sendri "pasai apa depa gelak? apa yang lawak nya?" Ayo ayo ayo x10000000! kalau aku tgk cerita ni kat kelantan ke terengganu ke, bleh trima lagi..tapi Penang Island? Jeezzz!!!

Lepas movie tu abis, kitorg cepat2 berambus kuar sbb takut org perasan sapa yg ketawa mcm org gila dlm movie tu. Mmg satu pengalaman yg sangat mengerikan. takutttt....