There is a reason why i put it at no 1. coz most people would rather die to believe the fact that i'm a freaking shy person. Betul. Perchayalah bahawa aku ni sgt la pemalu orang nye. i would not talk to people that i dont know or not comfortable with. if i'm in a big crowd, i would never want to be the centre of attraction neither would i go to people and introduce myself. i'm good sitting at one corner by myself. im good.
Kalau org yg baru kenal pun aku takkan overly friendly. Tak reti nak cakap pasal apa. Tapi bila dah kenal betul and i can find few things yg makes us clicked baru la aku betul2 peramah.
2. Sleep, eat and me at ease..
We know that our body actually talks to us but most of the time but we tend to ignore the signs. Let me tell you how my body talks. Bila aku tak cukup makan, tido ( 8 jam at least) or pressured, badan aku akan cepat sweat and shiver. Pastu bibir jadi dry nak mampus. Nafas jadi semput and cepat btul rasa annoyed, irritated and angry for the silliest mistake/act people can make.
Kalau korg tak tau macam mana rasanya atau teringin nak rasa. cubalah try meth and feel the after effect of it. then u would understand my situation when it happens.
Of course some people might experience the same symptoms but i have it everytime either one or all of those were not fully taken care of. Bulan posa adalah paling mencabar since aku menggigil bukan sbb aku lapa tapi sbb tahan nak maki dan penerajang org.
3. September Suey
September adalah bulan suey bagi aku. This is the month that my dad, brother and grandma died. Macam janjang arithmetic, they also died in order, one year after another. Tragic that it makes me become a septemphobic (mrasa create phobia sendri katanya).
Each time september approaches, i will always prep myself for another death note to be sent to me. And also run through my checklist on who should be dead this year and year after accordingly.
4. I'm dyslexic
Yes. Tom Cruise and i do have something in common. Both of us have dyslexia. Tapi aku tak seteruk Tom la.. i can still read. I'm having a minor dyslexic syndrome for which i cant tell right from left, i jumble numbers when put in a strings, i have difficulties memorizing figures and stuffs which gives me disadvantages and also advantages.
The biggest minus point for me is that i needed all those skills which i continuously fumble around, in order to do my daily job. And because of that i have to be extra careful in everything, be very meticulous so that i wont make any mistakes. It slows down my work and i hate it. Imagine running long list of numbers using calculator until i can get myself a constant final number. how frustrating is that?
No wonder aku tak pernah cukup masa buat math exam masa study dulu. Cis.
5. Cepat terasa
Ni pun macam item no 1 gak. Banyak org takkan pecaya sbb semua org pun ingat aku jenis tak kisah. Tapi sebetulnye aku ni sangat la kisah and cepat terasa sampai rasa mcm a little bit paranoid gak.
Aku bleh terasa up to the extend yg aku sendri pun kengkadang pikir ngarut. Contohnye bila kengkawan aku bleh sembang sesama sendri dlm bilik walhal aku kat luar sorg2 tgk tv atau baring. Inside my head, dok pusing2 sampai ati tak ajak aku gosip2 skali ngan korang. Gile kan? ahahah
Kengkadang bila aku tgk some of my friend yg lebih comfortable opening up to another friend of mine but not to me pun i terasa. Bley? Tapi memandangkan tuhan kasi i kebolehan utk rationalize benda sampai tahap menakutkan, sedikit sebanyak dapat memujuk hati yg cepat terasa ini.
6. Underwear fetish
Saya sangat suka underwear~~~ suka suka suka sangat! My fetish for underwear ni starts when i went to Bangkok last year. Kat flea market and shopping complex diorg banyak jual underwear yg cantik2, provocative, sexy, cute dan sebagainya.
Since then, keje aku adalah membeli underwear macam2 bentuk. g-string ka, tanga ke, superlow hipster ke etc. Kalau takde kat mesia, i beli je online. wah~ bazir duit beli benda yg org tak leh nampak pun....huhu
nasib baik ada myspace, bleh posse2 tayang underwear i.. tak gitu apau? ops.
7. At verge of death - twice
Kalau jadi kali ke tiga tapi aku tak insaf jugak..aku tak tau la...
Yes, i had almost seen the angel of death twice but god spares me my life still. I survived falling from a waterfall about 3 stories high, landing on considerably huge rocks and still lives. This happened long time ago back then when i was in primary school. Darjah 6 tak silap aku.
The second time was when my car spun like speedy merry-go-round on a highway due to aquaplaning effect. The car crashed onto the divider and jammed on the fast lane. i was stunned for quite a while (plus also trying to find my laptop bag and umbrella, not wanting to leave the car being wet under the rain). Soon after i left the car (of course with umbrella on and my laptop with me) 5 cars crash onto my car and 3 of them was completely damaged- total lost.
Who say miracle never happen?
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